emo-bunny

2009-09-06T17:07:00.007+08:00

Rinny is BACK ! wahaha . due to i was addicted in baking , so never did take alot of photo ! wahaha . anyway here's some recent pics . enjoy them .

2009-07-30T13:33:00.004+08:00

wad are u doing ? im innocent !

slpy le . go away pls .

ooo so cute my precious pillow , warm warm . >x<

o.0 ??

so an quan ( so secured )

sob i wan go out dun keep me waiting !

hi there im Princess Gwendolyn , and de person supporting me is my precious daddy King Daniel .

papa i wan to go out play . pls dun stop me ~~~

ma ma aren't i cute ? grandma let me wear so cute de shirt . n im so happy so i suck my pacifier happily .

milk milk time ! aren't i bless with happiness ? kekekees .

HEY U THERE WAD ARE U LOOKING AT ? IM GWENDOLYN DE GREAT . HOW DARE U LOOK AT ME IN SUCH AN UNSIGHTLY GLANCE ? ohh i wan to slp . pls hug me =(

Taken by Rinny .

Taken by liing n heng

2009-07-30T13:05:00.005+08:00

Taken by liing n heng .

2009-07-30T12:45:00.005+08:00

taken by miss chinn yee .

2009-07-30T12:43:00.000+08:00

taken by miss cuiting .

2009-07-30T12:22:00.002+08:00

HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
okays im back again . anyway so many fun things happen as i return back yishun n stay for 1 week ! damn high siahh . last week saturday , rush back yishun with hubby . den hubby went back camp for duty . den i tot suddenly CRAVING for steamboat . so call my ma SPECIALLY prepare for me last min . eat until damn happy . cuz got liing , min n heng here ! wahahaa . liing n heng stay until 12.30am den go home . CUZ we was watching de majong show on channel 8 or channel u . cant remember . damn FUNNY ! den got some pic dat we took de other time at goldkist . den wahahhaa . gonna upload . tgt with some pic i took over de past weeks when i mia from blogger . =x so de pics goes into de next post . then these few days went out took a walk . went to northpoint to buy a baby pram for xuan . although we got an old pram from other ppl . but me n ma xian too old . LOL . den din really do much things these few days . wahahah . anyway ytd went to giant at ssc . met one of my ex . well nth much actually . ohh ytd i did BIG SHOPPING ! bought pampers for xuan xuan . den wth i actually have this discount coupon i wanted to use , it deduct one dollar for de bigger size pamper . den i tot just buy n put aside , as she grew fast . so i happily carry to de counter n pay . den when i typing my pin number , den i realise i forget to give de lady de coupon , n she says cant use le . T_T wtFISH larhs !!!! pissed . den nbm lurhs . hubby an wei wo say , next time den use T_T ............ nts at dat point of time . saddies . anyway find my ma so contradict . when i told her i was pregnant the other time , she says u better DUN BRING her back until shee was one years old . but nowadays she call me to come back stay often n stay longer . -.-''' reason being she want to hug xuan xuan . she now snatching de chance to look after baby from me . -.-''' lmao . my pa also . says she big liao know to call ah gong den bring back . in de end everyday call n ask wad she doing when i coming back . so stayign here one week , they were so happy , spending all their free time playing with xuan xuan . -.-''' lameo larhs . den my ma is de super hyper one . keep asking , does she have enough shirt , pants , pampers n all '''(--.)''' surrender to them ......... ohh n hubby cant stand my ma one thing . everytime after feed xuan , we would put her back to slp . ( baby's routine by actual ) den my ma happily come in hug her ( den she cry ) , den want to bring her go watch TV or play on de bed . -.-''' she wanted to slp le den u all like dat . me n hubby really sweat diao . ... den i realise my ma really not talented at looking after baby . lols . not like me ! ( LOL !! )
okays enough of the words . time for pic-to-ture . waahaha .

2009-07-14T15:58:00.002+08:00

been feeling damn terrible this few days . sunday , got pan dao at 58 . den let my xuan qiu dao le . den nbm . after de thing , wtf , daniel tan pissed me . fine nbm , so i started saying i wan to leave n all , den quarrel with him . nbm . suah . den at nite , finally i cool le , den guess wad ?! WTF DAT FUCKING KODOMO BABY DEETERGENT DAT I CALL MY MUM BRING BACK TO YISHUN , SHE FUCKING LEAVE IT AT HERE ! WTH I JI TAO PISS , THROW DE HAND SOAP DAT I PLACE WITH DAT DETERGENT , INTO DUSTBIN ( those dustbin dat link to downstair . ) DEN I CALL UP N THROWING MY TEMPER . everyone says im in wrong , but the thing is , de week b4 she came , she AGREED to bring it back for me . den nbm . den nbm , dat day my mood fucking lousy , den she leave it dere to piss me more -.-''' wth ! first time im so angry n all . den today took alot pic . all gwen de shirts . LOL . (till today i have not spoke to my mum yet . who tell her , promised me but din do it . she shuld know i hate it . n ITS NOT HEAVY ! CUZ SHE HAD AN UNCLE WHO DRIVE N SENT HER TO HOUSE VOIDECK ! SO DE MORE I FUCKING PISSED ! its like , such a big van for her to take , cannot carry one 1litre of detergent n 2 stupid clip kinda thing ? REALLY DAMN ANGRY OVER IT . (partially daniel's fault . if not foe he had pissed me , i might not have been so angry n pissed . )
all right stop my #){*@{) rant le .

will post picture eventually but not today . not in de mood . bye bye .

2009-07-07T15:28:00.003+08:00

Well Well Well . Have been thinking so much happen , but well im finally happy to be who i am . cuz i got my lil sweetheart to be with me . with or without other is not important .

The other day my husband ask whether to me he is important , but now i thought thru , i never will , and never would want someone who stick to computer everyday . YES , I DID STICK TO IT IN DE PAST , but not now anymore . I nid someone who is able to reach out to me all the time . Not someone who always says WAIT ! I hope one day he realise how much he changed . Honestly how many gals like boys sticking to com and when they ask them do things , they would always say wait ? i really dun bother le . cuz last time i with someone , he is like so , now my husband also , really i dun think i would be able to met gd guys who always respond to me . so i rather have my lil gwen who would nid me to respond to her .

But hubby i really wish u change back to how u were when i first met u !!! i really cant stand ur hack care attitude now . If u cant respond as fast back to me , how u wan me to be dependent on u ? so i rather be back to myself all alone ? hmx been learning cooking from mother in law n been learning things in de prayer hall . got lots to learn . hope to learn alot . =x

got this photo ytd . so cute . =x

2009-07-03T23:22:00.002+08:00

so do i look like a boy now ?

i know im cute , pls stop looking at me . =x

ohh time to play ? i must have my fun !

STOP LOOKING AT ME , CANT U SEE IM UNHAPPY ?!

(omg this photo makes me laugh insanely , no matter how many time i see , i still laugh . cuz her face damn cute ! )

2009-07-03T22:44:00.002+08:00

hmm am back to blog again . first im gonna talk about june 28 .
june 28 , i celebrated first mth for my baby . in which is an early celebration .
during de preparation of food process , alot of quarrel went on . due to my mother in law is unhappy dat she does all de work n we din help out . ( hello im still in confinement how to help ? cant touch water , cant move heavy things , n idk how to cook ? ) i really wonders wad i can help . so in de end i help clearing things from table , and cut some ingredient . den she complain dat my husband did not help when he knows how to , but poor darling , he got back from ns camp , alr very tired , still has to suffer his mum unreasonable . if me , i would rather say i cater from outside , if not for she keep suggesting she cook . ( reason she wan to cook cuz she wanted to let others try her cooking , at de same time , let ppl know , vegetarian isn't just vegetable fry egg , or vegetable fry vegetable . she cook quite alot though . 2 curry i remember . vegetarian curry mutton n curry vege . n fry bee hoon n mee , cook chicken rice , fried de crispy thing dat always appear with vegetarian noodle when u buy outside ( zhai er ) n a few other vegetables which i din touch n cant remember . den we went to goldkist chalet . ( damn stupid larhs , everyone wanted bbq pit at first , n i book le , spent $16 , in de end sudden change of chalet plan , ) so off we go chalet , moving all de food n stuff , den alot of guest arrive . i have to entertain my family as well as my frene , while his mum attend her frenes , n hubby attend his one n only frene . gwen so baddie dat day , keep crying . all guest left by de time 8pm . den wth , i have to entertain gwen to 2am den she willing to slp . but anyway around 10pm , ting ting came , she stayed over with us , n well , she bought lays sour cream n onion , dream chocolate , n as well as coke for us . 3 of us stayed in room , eating de leftover food , n de snacks tgt . until zround 2am , me n hubby bth ( cuz we din slp since de day b4 , but i did slp like 2hr ) den we koed . ting help look after baby , n until 4am den she slp (thx sweetie , really grateful for wad u did , n for ur chocolate !! ) den very funny 2am . guess how we make gwen slp ? ( place 2 piece of nappy cloth , place her in de middle , use 2 hands , one hand holding 2 sides of a square , lift n put down de cloth , as though de baby cradle ... ) so overall , after so long , we realise she cant slp cuz she no cradle -.-''' she slp within 5 min when hubby lift n put down , ( hubby training muscle =x )
so funny , me n ting n as well as hubby , laugh until tummy pain . -.-'''
29th morning his mum came early to carry baby home to shower for her . got scold again . cuz hubby din keep de plates n trays n all . -.-''' DORTS ! den after she left , me hubby n ting went for breakfast at mac ( aft retuning key for de chalet ) den me n hubby went home while thing go other ppl de chalet . end of story . got take some pic with liing in de day , but she haven send me . will blog up after she send .

2ndly wanted to speak about this thing dat hurts me so much dat day . jul 1st , i nearly wan to leave here n go home . but his mum keep stopping me from carrying de baby . HELLO ITS MY BABY ! IF I WAN TO GO HOME , DO U THINK U REALLY CAN STOP ME ? so fine in de end i stayed in face of her n considering hubby realise his mistake . wad makes us quarrel ? gd question . cuz he keep using his hand to disturb my face , though light , but as though slapping me . n I SAID MILLIONS OF TIMES B4 , I HATE THOSE ACTION . n he never believe i would be so serious about leaving , ( cuz de last time i did those packing actions , i really was joking but not this time . ) den fine , he did dat i alr piss off , got more pissed when i breastfeed in de room , he was lying down in de living room watching tv . damn damn damn pissed when i saw . so i shout at him once . den after he helped me for de first time , once again , he left de room , n laid back where he was doing de same thing . 2nd time i nid help , n same thing happen . ( drives me to anger . ) den nbm . 3rd time breastfeed , he lie in bed going slp . HELLO CANT U SEE IM CARRYING A BABY N I CANT DO MUCH WITH MOVING ?! PISSED . ( n while im typing this , i heard gwen cry , n i ask him to check on her, he says cant u check urself , im middle of something . N I AM SURE HE IS PLAYING WOW NOW ! hello cant u go more overboard ? if u duwan to look after baby in de first place , i shuld not even bother to have her , let alone saying marry n giving birth . fine , now dat she's born , as my responsibility to love n take care of her . IF U DUN PLAY UR PART , I ALSO DUN GIVE A DAMN . CUZ GAMES ARE ALWAYS MORE IMPORTANT TO U ! i shudn't have agree to play wow with u in de first place . now i dun even care of WOW anymore . have or dun , i also dun care . after the time expire , I NEVER EVER WILL EXTEND IT ANYMORE ! I MEANT WAD I SAY . U TESTED ME ALOT OF TIMES LE . I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF IT !

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ trying to cool myself .

okays fine , i duwan to talk about it anymore , n i duwan to care anymore .

thirdly , i will blog pic of 3rd event in new post . but will blog de main title here . GWEN GOES BOTAK LE ! she slept thru de whole shaving process . n wake up after its done . n she poop right after she wake up , which is everyone know is a bad sign . ( cuz she never can have her butt dirty . she will cry for all she can , n stop only when u cleaned her . n took a few pic of her . got one damn funny photo , i saw many times , n im still laughing over it . okays , here is her pic . ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
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2009-06-29T22:13:00.001+08:00

im lazy to update today , n was not home ytd . shall update tmr . tired x.x gd nite all ~

2009-06-26T10:40:00.004+08:00

june 18th was hubby badae . had a few pics , but well there is no me ! cuz during confinement i looks unglam . =x here are de pics .

Si Zhen n ah jie .

Mummy n gwen gwen . ( ah jie hand beside wan to hug gwen )

Mummy , hubby n gwen gwen blowing candles .

Mummy patting gwen . ( hubby ur tummy ?! ) -.-'''

Hubby's cake . ( left side is eggless cake paid by me , but not get by me . de right one is tony get on his own . )

Hubby n Gwen . ( one of my favourite photo . )

Slpy gwen . kekees .

2009-06-26T10:16:00.002+08:00

* blink blink * time passes "QUITE" fast . so fast im near to end of my confinement . babby celebrating full mth this sunday . =) ealy 4 days celebration . gotta be bz over tmr n sat . so today nid to go out get alot of things done n prepare . anyway during my confinement period , i met with alot of problem =( i shall list all down here , although some i've mention before .
1. 1 week wash hair ONCE !
2. everyday eat weird weird bland bland things .
3. gotta take bitter herbs soup everyday . ( recent 1 week never take , cuz i take up alot heaty stuff , n a had ulcers <-dno how to spell )
4. showering hot feng ye water everyday . ( n i really mean hot . not de heater type , its worse den that )
5. had to see mummy n daniel quarrel =(
6. had to wake up in de middle of the night to breastfeed gwen gwen .
7. eating durians everyday -.-''' ( everyone keep buying home . due to durian season -.-''' )
8. had to suffer insufficient slp , cuz bao bao keep wake up , n i always wait for hubby den slp , in de end would wait until 1 am .
9. no plain water or cold water to drink =( cuz mummy say cannot drink , n she forbid everyone to give me .
10. gwen gwen not having enough milk to drink . cuz the other time , full milk but never pump out , now affect de amount of milk le . ( all daniel's fault ! call him to bring breast pump , he die die duwan !!!!! )
11. had to wake up early to help do things , if not they keep saying they having hard time .

idk got wad else , but all mention above is things i face everyday , damn irritated . hais ~

okays fine fine , i talk about happy things next post . ( gonna update picture , so dun wanna do it in same post . )

2009-06-25T23:33:00.002+08:00

hohoho ! forget to post about this important thing the other time , when gwen gwen born , she was a very lucky gal . CUZ SHE HAD A KNOT TIED WHEN SHE TURN AROUND IN MY WOMB . N IF DAT BLOODY KNOT TIGHTEN , SHE WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN HERE TODAY . really kinda woke up about this . cuz its really a grave matter . anyway confinement had been tough . but will talk again in next post or so .

(gotta go off , cuz my mother in law is nagging , im still in confinement period n im not getting enough slp . ! i've became a panda !)

2009-06-15T12:49:00.004+08:00

okays here is wad everyone waiting for , some pics of gwendolyn =)

im not sleeping . seriously , im just looking around for my milk .

papaa burping for me . but why it seems u trying to strangle me ? o.0 ??

where are u mummy ?

MUMMY I WAN MY MILK (T_T)

Who are u ? why are u looking at me ?

Dun Buwee me ! Go away !!!

boohoo go away , dun come near me !!

slacky in mummy arms . lalala ~

Gwendolyn in papaa's hand !

Gwen Gwen in papaa's warmy arm . kawaii nerhs ~!

( tony was taking picture while in Daniel is hugging her . ) scared ! wad u trying to do stranger !

2009-06-11T15:20:00.004+08:00

seriously felt funny . received this sms of SOMEONE asking me wad im busy with recently , y never contact him . HELLO ! of cuz im bz with Gwendolyn's stuff ! and why de hell shuld i contact u ? not like u're impt to me . u're just NOBODY ! WAHAHAHA !
okays dats kinda stupid . am feeling awfully dread . was so tired . i have to breastfeed her during de day . and even at times in de nite . WTH with de stupid weather also , was so freakingly bth . had to suffer the hotness , going thru days without fan . thankfully to hubby , at least i have air con during my slp . -.-'''
and had to eat those hotty stuff dat sweat me like #(P&%)(@#&%@( !!!!!!
okays i rant to many ppl complaining how awful it felt . worse part of worse ! i cant stand when i did not shower with COLD WATER N SHAMPOO ! how can i feel clean with showering hot water n worse of all not being able to wash hair ????????!!!!!!!! how i wish im staying alone now . =X so i can have a nice wonderful shower ! hahaas !!!!!!!! bth le bth le bth le ! all my complains !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -.-'''

okays now to me i will say the greatest happiness of de day , is not only slp , IS BEING ABLE TO SHOWER COLD WATER N SHAMPOO UR HAIR AS MANY TIMES AS U LIKE ! actually confinement is terrible for me . if u call me eat alot of bitter or weirdy stuff , am still able to tahan . but pls dun call me DUN SHOWER PROPERLY . ITS KILLING ME INSANELY !!! now i know y ppl have after preganancy depression . its really terrible dat it will make u feel so fuming n despo at times . i really had de signs of depression . I EMO , CUZ I DUN GET TO HAVE NICE SHOWER . AND IT HAS TO LAST UNTIL JULY 2ND ! OMFG #%)*@#%*$_*%$@_*%@#_*%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_____________________T

am seriouly UPSET OVER IT ! -.-'''

Gwendolyn is 9 days old , and still counting . x33 Daniel Tan AND Gwendolyn Tan .

2009-06-10T12:56:00.002+08:00

Hi all once again . Finally remember my blogger pw . Anyway was being asked on alot of things . So i just blog here n let everyone who wants to ask about de birth process , get de chance to know .

On june 1st , Monday , i went back to my doc's clinic check up in de morning . Did the (CTG) scan ; [forget de full name of de scan ] . Doc say can still wait for baby to birth . So hubby says , " since past few days we waited for NTH , today we dun wait . We proceed on with wad we nid to do . IT WUN BE SO COINCIDENT THAT SHE WILL COME OUT TODAY WHEN WE PLANNED TO DO SMTH IMPT . " So well we planned my day trip as per normal . Even though it was a high time period . I planned with hubby to return to my house to check de address for Acer service centre , den we would go up n sent his lappy for repair . Then after which we will go shopping at town and then go home . But we drag the time . We drag n drag till evening , den changed plan . Plan B is stay at yishun overnight , and june 2nd , Tuesday , we would visit de service centre .
Funny thing . We packed all our stuff . All ready to leave home . Before i left , Mummy [ Daniel's Mum ] touched my tummy and says " BABY , BABY , FASTER COME OUT , AH MA WAN HUG HUG U . " Then suddenly , i felt something warm flowing out of my cervix . I tot it was my bladder over full , and de urine flow out . So i went to toilet . I wiped it away and clear my bladder , still thinking it was urine , i didn't give any second thought of wad it would be . After wipe , i took a new panty n pants , wanted to wear , and it flows again . This time i started suspecting something is wrong . I started thinking . I tot i just cleared my bladder ? So kinda panic . Well so coincident , hubby was at living room watching tv , was kinda panic in toilet . -.-'''
Well n as if hubby can hear my heart calling for him , he walked into room . I asked him is de water in de water bag warm ? He look at me , stunned n blurred . So i say i think my water bag burst . -.-''' then the first sentence he says after recovering himself , " call up ur clinic n ask wad happen ? " So there i go , called n ask the lady at the counter . She replied hang on that she would call me back in a min she nid to consult doctor . -.-''' next call i picked up , i received this reply . " Pls admit urself into the hospital , de nurse at de clinic will guide u when u are there . " Then my mother in law VERY PRO . At this point of time , she started cooking mushroom noodle . -.-''' Then she says , " nbm one , no need be so panic . baby wun come out so soon de . " so we happily eat our stupid noodle , den take cab to Eastshore hospital .
Upon reaching hospital , me n hubby was saying so coincident as in baby really did know how to choose time n all . -.-''' SO SO COINCIDENT ! i cant even belief it . Right after wad my mother in law said [ as above ] , water bag burst . -.-'''
So then the nurses gave me a clothes , wth , tied behind , n will see ur butt if de split open . Worse still , no undergarments or anything , just that piece of cloth . -.-''' den call me lie down in bed and wait for de cervix to open up to 10 cm . So there i go , lying in bed , chit chatting n laughing with hubby . When i admit in , my cervix is only 2cm wide . so i chat n joke n all , until around 2am , small visible feeling of contraction started . Nurses came in alot of time and ask whether i wan put epidural before de big pain comes , and i went on hard saying no . REASON BEING both my mum and my mother in law tell me try not to use it . So 2am i start complaining pain . [ though still bearable at that point of time . ] I tot my cervix will open up fast , but neither did i expect it to be so so slow . At June 2nd , Tuesday , around 6.30am , i cannot stand de pain n requested for epidural . -.-''' so in de end i still put , de previous suffering went to vain . I remember de pain was dat painful that i can't turn my body . So with de help of de nurses , i turned facing left , and de doc injected de epidural into my back . I can say it was a damn stupid experience . At first i was given a marsk that contain dunno wad air , the nurse say will help in de pain . i use , it help , making me giddy -.-''' . So i went for 2nd option , the injection on de leg , IT DIN WORK AT ALL ! -.-''' so i ended up with epidural . At the point of time i took epidural , i can't even pee on my own le . Cuz de pain was dat painful dat i cant even force myself to pee .
So 6.30am after injection , i fall into a short slp . feeling so worn out caused by the pain . At around 9.30 am , i woke up starting to pick up my sense of touch again , and de pain , slowly returning to me . At around dat time de doc came , but she say still nid sometime for my cervix to completely open , n for baby's head to be seen . So she went back to de clinic first .
I was thinking OMG wad if suddenly im ready to deliver ?
So she went off , n i still suffering de pain . Well around 10am de nurse checked n says im still not ready , and say if i wan can squeeze to let the baby come out early . So i TRIED SQUEEZING . At 10.30am , de nurse checked again . This time she says can see head le , use ur strength n push . So i went in pain trying n squeezing . After a few tries i cant manage to squeeze out . So nurse hurry n call doc . Doc reach in fast speed , n asked me to SQUEEZE with all my might . So i push n push , all de way this time , n baby is out .
Ppl asked how do u feel after baby is out , i tell u it felt as if for hundreds yrs never clear bowels , after come out , felt so light n empty , no longer dat painful , no longer feel urself . U will wan to KO after dat . Its a very tiring job ! But well i din ko , n i hugged baby so happily . First time , i feel so great , so touched . seeing her in my arms . u can ask her father how he felt . he smile n hug her so dearly . Praising me that im gd did a gd job . A day full of warm n touch . Tried breastfeeding her right after she born . but she refuses . So i had a lil time , i koed . next moment i woke up , they were ready to change me to my ward .
breastfed her in ward , and feel so wonderful dat day .

thats about de story of me giving birth to lil Gwendolyn Tan .
Today , she is 8days old le . =D
pics of her i cant upload as i couldn't find my hp wire -.-''' sry pals .

okays time for me to rest now . blog again soon . nitey all !
signing off , rinny .

2009-04-13T07:07:00.004+08:00

LALALA ~ a few week nvr blog . cuz hubby finally got his 8-5 ! have plenty of time with him now . but sadly speaking , i hope these time last longer ~~~~

anyway last week doctor checked my babby n says she's smaller den other ppl's babby T_T

bao bao wad happen to u ? mamaa gain weight u nvr !! sobs ~ anyway alot of blood test n stuff to do . cuz ... for de sake of babby ! hahaaas . * pain though * LOL . will be over at hubby house these few days cuz mummy went malaysia to visit her mum n at de same time , she going to get some leaves dat im gonna use to shower after my due , during my post pregnancy period . anyway been doing NTH ! sobs . so bored larhs . n well happy cuz everyday got hubby cook breakfast for me ><''' hahaas ! now blogging alone , cuz hubby went for driving , n de kids went for sch , mamaa n ah jie go malaysia . im all alone left at home =( well had great food just now . noodles , with eggs n harshbrown . cook by hubby . ohh anyway im going back to slp le . ><'''

de day b4 slept at 4am . n woke up at 10am , ytd 11pm den slp . sometimes i wonder am i a pregnant lady ... cuz i dun look like one though . doing laundry when im not suppose to . -.-''' lols ~ n wads more powerful , i can run ! lols ~~~~ hahaas tummy getting abit bigger . but my hubby says it looks like ppl de 4 or 5 mth big ? n im gonna due in 2 mth time ? omg omg !! really VERY SMALL LURHS !!!! -.-''' sweat ... nutrients !! i wan NUTRIENTS !!! aLL FOR LIL BB !!! LOL !

okays enough craps . no photo yet . unable to take . cuz ... lousy phone ! took so long to capture pics . sadssssss ... ohh got these 2 my babby photo . wanted to upload de other time but i forget . so here it is .

2009-03-25T13:51:00.002+08:00

wahaha . so bored to be at home . so i tend to run around alone these few days . now i know y my ma so hyper to go shopping alone le . cuz ... 1. no one to go with , 2. better concentration to see wad u wan to , 3. no one to pester u ! hahaas . can do wadever u wan when u shop alone . anyway realise things selling online are cute . but sometimes its not worth .
was thinking of getting some stuff for babby ytd when i went to woodlands causeway point . but well !!! i've got almost everything i nid . so i dun c a point for me to buy . clothes i have like a dozen set in cupboard , powder , nappies , nappy liners , breast pads , pads , disposable panties , well almost everything u say i have them . well dat include my babby de blanket n pillows ! all hand made by my mother in law . this week end go back , i try to c whether i can get de pictures of them . hahaha ! a whole closet compartment full off lil babby thing . ohh . names been decided . Tan Liing Xuan . hope to spell in this format though . English name , i cant tot of any , so thinking of giving her my favourite name , Rinny . suggestions anyone ? hahaas . hmx Tan Liing Xuan sounds abit weirdy . but i like de chinese pronounce of it , Chen Liing Xuan . sounds kinda smooth as said by some frenes . Well still have about 2mth to think . so take a lil flex in it den .
Hubby been bz with his driving test , all de best to u sweetheart . hope u pass n get ur 8-5 n PEII WO !! hahaas . been emoing last week cuz kinda think time is so short for me n him to be tgt . sat noon - sun evening . like not even enough time to have a gd rest n chat tgt . sadded though . anyway been thinking back to how i met him n all . IT JUST FEEL SO FAST N UNREAL ! its like a blink of eye , we're married n all . Well wad do u think bibi ?

Well Edd on 6th june like so so fast ! Like in another 2 mth babby will be out , come to think of dat . im afraid though . of de pain , idk . heard ppl says it feels like wanna big business but cannot come out type of feeling . IDK but to me i felt it hurts . T_T''' hopefully lil xuan xuan dun make mummy suffer too long kies . Mummy shi teng ni de . Ohh baobao seems to love papaa alot . cuz when her daddy is back she'll be so happy n guai as in to not kick so much n move so much though . n when papaa gone , she buwee me . kick n move like as though she is a big wormy in my tummy ... saw cui ting de other day , she commented ur tummy not as big as wad i imagine nerhs . 2 more mth u're giving birth le . unbelievable . lols . IS MY TUMMY REALLY DAT SMALL ? lols ~ my gynea says im fine , babby is of avg size . well shuld i happy ma ? ( avg size ez come out ma !! ) hahaaas .

Finally !!! CREDIT TO JIA LING ! ( she asked me for her credit though ) FOR rushing to my house to help me put make up on my ROM day , FEBRUARY 13th 2009 ! CUZ she actually have exam , dun wanna come , N I TOLD HER den i duwan put make up cuz i dun really know how to . SO SHE FELT ABIT BAD AS IN TO LEAVE DE BRIDE IN GHOSTLY FACE ON HER ROM DAY , and SO SHE CAME TO MY RESCUE !! hahaas . ( abit kuah zhang ><><''' but thx . for de effort n all . hahaas .

2009-03-18T10:39:00.002+08:00

Was over at hubby house last few days . Cuz mummy went to batam . when she came back , she told us about her trip . seems kinda fun but suffering at same time . well food problem i think . nvr expect a hotel chef to cook fried rice using beans , rice n soy sauce . well worse goes for de char kway tiao . kway tiao with pepper n bean sprout . >_<''' looks like im still blessed . to have mummy such a great chef as mother-in-law . well very funny when we discus with tony about de trip . we have our laugh n all of us nearly roll onto de floor . he even has to hold back b4 he start saying wad he wan . really a funny experience . mummy says will bring me over next time . hopefully can have fun time tgt . Misses hubby lots . cuz he bz in camp . well if his tp passes on i think next monday , den we would have plenty of time tgt le . ^_^V hmx for time being just nid to spend my time at home rest .

today had to do blood test on my own . 7 times though . completed first 2 . later will be doing de leftover 5 times . its not hard to take de test . but its hard when u have to poke urself to bleed .
-_-''' going out with sa n candy later . hope to have a nice gathering later . have gd fun n all . hahaas . okays dats all for time being . will update again . cheerz !

2009-03-12T09:49:00.006+08:00

Hi to everyone . Im back for blogging . Its been long since i blogged about my recent life . Was coming back to blog . not gonna let it go dead anymore . well recently been doing nth at all except window shopping . kinda shop alone at times .

Met kimberly ytd . de look of her was funny . one str look n when her mouth open , first sentence , " u pregnant huh ? " i guess its unble to hide though . cuz lill babby is getting bigger n bigger each day . well den . i think to her its kinda shock . she asked , " u married huh ? " so i was like , " yes . " and she goes , " when ? " well a short chat showing how long we've not been in contacts bah .

Anyway wanna update a my recent life . well im officially married , just dat haven had banquet . maybe or maybe not in future . had go into buddist religious thing . praying n chanting like a nun though . but im not . im just chanting at times for gd sake of my lil babby . well my carefree life was over . time to get a change . so lil babby hope u're healthy n fine .

Below is some picture i took at Rom on february 13th 2009 . Well dat dress NOT MINE . Borrowed from others . No choice . Wad can i choose when im having a BIG BIG tummy dere . as u can see ~ i've put on weight . So dat goes to say i've to jy n slim down after babby born . >< ( rather i never was slim after my sec sch yrs , but just dat its SLIMMER den now though ) hahahaas .

This is my Family !
My papaa on de left . My husband and me in middle . N My sweet mum .

( papaa everytime try his best to clear de mess i've created , even though he's not happy about certain things , USUALLY he hides . but well he's so lousy at hiding larhs ! )

( mamaa , though a lousy cook , but she still cook for de sake of worrying i'll be dying of hunger ! paying thru my hard times . prepare me for wad dat may comes . teach me to grow * even though when i was 3 mth old i was being handed to my aunt . * let me see alot of things since young , but in de end still make me dependent on her . when im not at home , she's lonely . but she never let anyone know she was . when things turn around on myself , den i finally realise how lonely it is for her , not to have someone to talk to . not to have someone to go out with her with . Mummy dote on me alot . but alot of times , she just cant understand wad teenagers wants . but never can i blame her . she's not pro in cooking or choosing . but she's still de best mum , cuz she did her best to provide everything . )

Ah Jie , Mummy and lil Xiong Xiong .

( Though mummy is my mother in law , she also dote on me so so much ! Nvr fail to cook gd meals for me , worrying i've not enuff nutrient , even bought expensive supplement dat will boost my body . Nvr complain much about wad she does for u , but was hoping u had eyes to see for urself . so she's someone whu express LOVE so deeply . But someone whu never let u see her weak side . A great mother in law i have had . * ohh she's such a wonderful cook , dat alot of ppl in de praying hall envied me to have her . But omg larhs ... pressure for me larhs . cuz she's such a great cook , n i only know fried rice with egg , maggie mee , fried egg these type of stuff . must faster learn . hopefully wun throw her face away >< * )

( Ah Jie , someone whu never fail to buy chocolate n durian for me when im in crave . OWED her alot . She's definitely one gd family members u can ever find . She never complain about how much she was paying . But she care more about is everyone in family happy . A V GD SISTER to have . someone i cherish alot in de family . )

My papaa , Me n My DearDear Mummy .

This is Lil Xiong Xiong .

( A lil boy my mother in law was looking after . will be entering pre sch playground in april 1st . den will not be able to see him dat often le . though he can be v naughty , but he is definitely CUTE ! sometimes he'll make u detest him . but sometimes he's so adorable dat he'll make u laugh n loved him so much . well i guess dats wad make up a KID though . )

Ah Jie n Me

( she's hugging my lil babby in my tummy . she's so happy for me when she know i've a child . goes to show how much she love kids huh . )

Hubby , Me and Xiong Xiong
( do we look like a family ? >< )

Me and Xiong Xiong.
( wad my papaa doing behind ohh ? -_-''' )

2009-02-18T18:35:00.001+08:00

wow ~ so long never update le . well dno wad to update also . but anyway im officially married . im to be address as mrs tan le T.T . well been doing nth , so lazy to on comp also , so never update . ohh . my babby is 5 n half mth le . ^_^V its a baby gal . hopefully she'll be a nice n gd gal . ^_^ well dats for all . ><'''

2008-12-23T20:44:00.002+08:00

okays ! im lazy im lazy N YES IM !

yuppie been lazy to update bloggy . another reason is im trying to pack up all my stuff at home .
the day after tmr n im moving out of Blk 734 #06-400 yishun ave 5 singapore 760734 !

yes ! yes ! im moving . though to a quite deserted place . well no harm rite ? hahaas . anyway
so freaking omg . cuz dat new house is still half done . wonder how shuld we move in ><
tmr is wednesday , well its also christmas eve tmr ! hahaas . i meeting sa and candy tmr .
been really long since i last meet up with them . for months i think . looking forward to tmr !

signing off , Rinx33
~ x33 my babby , hope u'll be healthy n cheerful ! dun ever be like me !

2008-12-17T14:32:00.001+08:00

2008-12-17T14:04:00.003+08:00

okays im damn super duper tired these few days . maybe dats wad pregnant people shuld feel ? okays anyway went a check up , n i have my mother in law , daniel's sister n de lil gal call lu ying dat my mum in law is taking care of . having so many people going is quite abit ~ well anyway super shocking encounter . de nurse ask me to take height n weight . n well still as usual im as heavy as im . but i lost a lil weight though . i weigh 79kg now , n my height is still 164cm . dats not de main part , de nurse talk to me n ask me alot like am i married , how i got myself pregnant n all . den we chat until de part dat she ask me my blood group , n i answer i wasn't sure . den she say nid to take blood test . so i was like okays fine , den she random pop out saying , " y u duwan to get marry n deliver de baby ? " so i was a lil confused but i answer , " yup i wan to deliver de baby . " so she was going like , " tot i saw de refferal letter writing unwanted pregnancy ? " den i goes , " i wan my baby ! im here for a check up . "den she kinda let go wad ever she was intending to do , n call me go outside sit n wait . den nbm , make me drink one full cup of water ! n den call me wait fo doc . so dere i go , like a stupid idiot , bearing my urine n waiting for doc . while waiting something freaking funny happen . lu ying go peel off de black black part of her shoe . den my mum in law was saying things like , " u make ppl floor dirty , later they wan u to stay n clean for them . den while this malay clerk was stamping on a piece of doc , den my mum in law came naughty in mind , n she says to lu ying , " u see u so naughty , she stamping on paper getting ready to do injection for u . " lu ying keep saying , " no i duwan " den my mum in law keep scaring her , den de clerk says , " dun scare her , she going to cry . " next moment , lu ying stood dere n cry so funny , me n my mum in law was laughing to each other , though not de big loud laugh though . den de cler took out mentos n gave one to lu ying n calm her down . so funny m drama . den finally my turn , i saw de doc , she patiently asked n explain de things to me . den randomly , call me unbuckle my bra n pull down my pants till my abdominal area . den she teach me how to touch urself to check for any breast tumor , n first time , another women touched my breast . kinda abit shy at first , but well , its a check up , wad u expect ! n well she's also a female . so nth to be afraid of . so she check for me de first time . n says no obvious tumor found , n im fine . so den she pour de liquid thing n scan for my lil baby . super cute . de baby was keep kicking n kicking inside me . so kawaii . n de doc tells us where is de hand , de legs , de heart , de head , its obvious in shape le . den measuring de baby n roughly estimate dat my delivery date is june 6 , its not 100% accurate , but a high chance of it is . den de doc explain n hope i'll make my mind on whether want to do de blood test . den i decide i'll come on sat . den before i left de doc gave me a photo of my lil baby . which i use my hp to took n this is wad i've got ( posted in next post ) , though not clear . den after dat i took my med made my next appointment n went to my mum in law home . till night time den i came back my own home .

2008-12-05T14:25:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder is it humans out dere getting weird or just me ? i dun understand . is being moody gives a person right to tell others off ? is havin pms n moodswing gives a person right to condemn on others ? is unconfident a weakness dat changes human nature ? n is all people really dat gd as wad they appears ? idk , maybe is just de " difference " in thinking or rather de " difference " in background growing . if it has been easy between human communication , i think de world would have turn out better . if people hasn't been selfish , greedy , petty , unreasonable , i think in between human things will turn out much better . i think dats wad people says dat de outside world is harsh . cuz everyone shuldn't depend on someone else . its better for them to deserve themself . some people just take things for granted , n ive had enough of going thru all these . i think gd frene is someone who is able to reach out to u when u in need , not when they in need they reach out for u n forget everything about wad was being done to helped . n honestly , i just feel it sucks to be living in such world . human nature , truly is a harsh nature . well i guess dats y people says money is more trustable den frenes . i seems to know more about such world of fake nowadays .

i think im still perfectly fine , maybe dats de difference from de experiences we go thru . maybe dats y they say human nid to go thru certain stage to grow up . i think im on de stage of growing ahead of others . how true can a frene be ? time will tell u . cuz eventually untrue frenes will blow their cover EVENTUALLY . i guess being myself is de best after all . n i do belief my father's advice . cuz everytimes he commented on certain people . those points dat he mention , will eventually be seen . daddy is de best , best at spotting other ppl " cover " .

okays forget all about de ranting . im gonna congrats myself on being a mum , though its an embrassment to be pregnant before marry , but im happy with my life . at least ive gotten wad ive been searching for , n ive had found someone who is to me , wonderful . ive once been culture in buddist , for once i tot ive regret in my decision , but today , i came to clear mind , dat since its wad my believes in young age , ive decide to go full fledge vegetarian when i reaches age 21 . for time being , i'll try to adapt my changes to de food dat ive taken . n tq korr for going back into eating vegetarian n supporting me . from young till now , we've gone thru n seen alot tgt . u're de only first person dat i think i shuld trust . n 2nd will be my darling hubby . korr , without u , i would stand a low chance against standing firm in my decision . i know ive been unreasonable before , ive been proud before , ive been not very considerate before , but im gonna go for wads de best for me . just like wad kaze says before . human nids 2 side of their faces . GD n BAD . so as to swap around when facing different opponents . i'll go out fully to protect against my pride n i'll definitely go out fully to protect against my family . i guess i just nid him , dat'll be dere truly to stand against all storm with me . maybe is dats y i choose my other half over freneship . cuz like wads been written in history , husband is someone who is gonna be beside u all ur life , n frenes , are just bees who buzz in n outta life . i think if im left all alone with him today , i still can survive . cuz i belief , dat he'll be dere to give me dat 100% attention when i really nid it . finally i concluded myself , dat im living in happiness n blissful .

to someone who is once a frene , though dat stupid arguement is damn stupid , but well at least ive learn my lesson today . dat ive to truly be a capricon , n u made me realise i found my happiness . major decision maded . im gonna be strong like my in law . cuz she's someone i derserve to learn from .

2008-11-20T11:28:00.002+08:00

cool mia for so longgggggggg ~ hahaas .
ohh . im engaged . solemnisation will held on feb 13 ( de so called " black friday " )
erm okays its like im announcing to whole world , but ohh well . since 70% of my frenes know le .
i might as well let everyone know . i " MAYBE " going ot held a banquet in next year .
see clearly arhs " MAYBE " . hahaas . okays haf fun guys . contact me if u wan . =)

signing off , rinny x33 laogong .

2008-11-03T13:46:00.002+08:00

hmx finally in de mood to blog le . alot alot had happen . my dad accepted my baby , i was damn freaking shock with de whole process . though mum is still abit unwilling to accept , n throw tantrum at my pa , but well hopefully everything ends soon ? am really glad dat p accept , never knew my pa was so supportive towards me . freaking touch . pa n ma . sryy .
thanks to jess , rena n mountain chicken , though i throw temper atu all at first , cuz i was really worried about how my parents will react . but really thanks to u all , dat i knew i had sucha supportive dad . PAPA WO AI NI . DUI BU QI .
hubby been really glad on de fact my pa accept . though im still worry about whether pa will angry dat daniel is vegetarian ? but i hope not bah . since daniel is willing to take up all responsibility n everything . papa xie xie ni .
supposingly today go raffles find carol n work tgt , but last nite not enough slp , really hen xing ku now . im getting back into bed ltr i guess . hmx my stress had reduced , but still worrying over financial problems . hopefull can cope with it bah . =)

finally im in mood to blogg again =x
signing off , Rinx33

2008-10-24T13:23:00.002+08:00

been really away from blogger , cuz alot happen .
* sweetie i love u , u're my piority * ( sis shuld know wad im refering to . )
okays , time to get myself to fight de war ! pray hard ~
interview on sunday , JYJY ~ x33 lil sweetie .

signing off , Rinx33

2008-10-16T12:45:00.000+08:00

Yawns . SO BORING ! omg . my days just so bored . hope to faster join back school den can start doing things dat i long never do le ! bth . hmx happy cuz last week ive had spend ample time with hubby . =) now this week is quite a boring week for me . feel so NO LIFE ! saddies .

signing off , Rinx33

2008-10-08T15:51:00.001+08:00

after exploring n thinking thru , i decided to del my old blogger , as well as , use back my old blogskin . looking at de skin itself , it links me back to alot memories . but its not important anymore .

signing off , Confused Rin .

2008-10-08T15:14:00.002+08:00

Thinking back to my last few years of life . i cant really seems to find de point in my life ?
everything seems so depressing somehow . though i learn to look on de bright side , but .
well things wasn't really working out as it seems . sometimes i ponder over things which din
actually happen or even exist . i guess dats wad they call emo n depression ? sometimes i do
feel i have split personality . i can be happy now , n upset in de next moment , without remembering wad happen b4 dat made me happy . guess ive been up to lame these few weeks .
been giving daniel alot of troubles n stuff . Wads with de fucking mind in me dat wanna make myself miserable ? sometimes i just wished . things have never happen in such ways dat idk whether they're right or wrong . thinking n thinking . i think i really nid a brainwash . BEEN HOOKED in psp these 2 days . dun think its really gd in such a way . so i just locked it up in cupboard n stop myself from getting addict to it , n transforming back to wad i was just months ago .

remembering going to clement's badae celebrationg at his uncle house . well i was really late . n i really pissed the guys off i guess ? well was saying i'll leave house at 3.30pm but eventually i slept n leave home at 4.30pm . randomly picked a present for clement , wasn't as gd as wad i wish it will be ? well maybe dats y i dun like buying present . den went to amk find hao , clement , mc , bryant n a few others who i dun really know or remember . but i remember i late until yz sian den he went home eventually . well was sryy . cuz i wasn't been feeling well all these while . as in im kinda caught u a lil in insomia . but its getting better these few days . went swimming last few days . kinda swim in rain . as in really swim . den been tiring myself out to make myself more into sleeping mode ? rofl . not been in de mood , n nth much for me to post up . so been skipping de idea of updating blog , read blogs n even check mails . today quite a lil in mood , so here i am craping up my days again .

been thinking about moving house n about my rs . well things maybe wasn't as happily ever after was wad was written in fairy tales . to me . maybe its just how plain im feeling . n not how gd ive been feeling bah . been keeping up my emotions to everyone . well hopefully one day i'll clear my mind n start feeling all better again .

* p.s. thx for everything . but im still thinking about wad ive been telling u dat was in my mind . it wouldn't be ez for me to forget n belief . idk its just matter of my feelings . i know im being selfish in such a way . pardon me . maybe . like wad i said b4 . im not as ready as i thought . maybe its myself dat i cant get over with . alot of things , i still mind . i still care . WAD DE FUCK SHULD I DO ? I REALLY DONT KNOW ! *

signing off . Confused Rin.

2008-10-04T12:41:00.002+08:00

just watched channel U de show , seeking de right one , they show Quan Yi Feng de surprise wedding , den i suddenly tot of future . was curious wad reallys holds on for me . well felt very touching when watch dat show . though i watched b4 le , repeat watching , still feeling it was sweet n touching . well not important . these few days hasn't been doing much . keep slacking n slacking T.T lazy me . how i wish to faster get a job n start working on for money . has been very broke . LOLS ! okays nth much to blog about today .

signing off , Rinx33 .

2008-10-01T10:40:00.002+08:00

i guess having stress n cant relieve it , really is terrible ? have been having insomia . so vex about everything . it feels as though a mountain of rocks is on ur shoulder . how i wish to go somewhere quiet , without anyone to bother me . thinking back n thinking thru . alot have happen . n i realise ive been such a bitch from past to now . guess im not a welcoming soul after all .
ppl says frene walk in n out of life , i wondering y some " friends " walk in n out in n out .
am i really such a lousy frene ? sometimes i just wonder .
thing varies from time to time , does human characteristic applies to it too ?
im so fickle minded now . just wondering wad has to be n wads not to be ?
sometimes i really wonder wad did i really want .
have been trying to think thru wad i want , but it seems i cant find de proper answer .
discussed with carol about wad males care about , not bias to gals , but sometimes ,
its really hard for gals to guess wad guys wanted .
well on contary its hard for guys to understand gals too .
i dun understand y mother nature make us have such big difference .
mars n venus . a book i browse thru at bookstore .
its quite true in some of de paragragh though .
hmx if freneship is not working out between humans ,
how can we expect relationship to ?

then i thought of this to myself . how come i can feel im alive ? n de heartpain , de happy ?
den i pinched myself n ask , y is dere such thing as human in de first place ?
den i tot of alot of stupid question , y was i given a name ?
y everything was given a name ?
y a certain thing appear to be how it looks ?
y is dere scientist n invention ?
think till a point i tot maybe im just insane ?
den i tot y do we have different face when we're of same kind ?
y cant we be like de animals ? cow ? goat ? monkey ?
it surely is im losing my sanity i concluded .

then thinking thru , i realise , actually in years of life we actually can use the time to make alot of changes n improvement . its only whether we want or duwan . so i learnt not to complain . but to think , why thing are in such ways n not how i wanted it to be . and i learnt . dun ask wad others can do for u . ask urself , wad can u do for others instead . so i never nid to learn to complain about my giving n not having things to take back .

signing off , Rinx33

2008-09-30T12:32:00.002+08:00

Been really in bad mood these few days . ever since last thurs . dun ask me why . i wun even bother to talk much details about it . looks like my acting skills been really increasing . how many would have ever know wad im thinking . freneship , relationship , kinship ? are there really LOVE ? as in are there really the perfects ? since nobody is perfect , den why de hell are we looking for perfects ?
ive been really thinking thru wad happen ever since i entered secondary . cant understand wad my heart n mind is really asking for . time to time , it just leave me in confusion making me feel so lost . guess its not about packing up feelings or being emos . its just about how much ive been able to understand myself ? nbm .

recently did quite a few things . like going to cinema with carol to watch mirror . was quite " scary " to me , since im not frequent to watching these type of shows . however its been trilling n funny with our reaction for some parts .
well went to jess house to watch 4bia too . was quite scary , de first part , second part quite disgusting , third one is really lame n funny . well i missed de forth , cuz lazy to watch on . well gonna get a gd time n catch it again . watched disater movie at de same day too . quite a confusing show . nbm . n carol n jess watch some show , forget its name , heard its funny , n im not watching , cuz i leave my concentration on my phone n tony's psp .

met up with daniel on fri n sat . did nth much , a sway day i guess . for my part of story is funny , for his part is piss i guess .
Friday , 26th sept 2008
i went swimming , n returning home , i tot wanna take clothes n went out slack until daniel book out , but i forget to take things after i first time lock de door , den nbm i ope le , took le , den WTF ! i left my key , cellphone n wallet inside de house . dats not de lame part , lamest was i went over to cuzzie house wanting to ask for key , den find for almost an hour n i couldn't find . den jiu nbm . i called n ask my dad whether he could come back n borrow me de key , den he says he was bz . coincidently , xiong looked behind de tv deco , n saw my key . wth ~ i was so freaking excited , n as i walk out his house door , calling to char bor waiting for me at my house door , i lost balance n fell down ( worst thing is im holding to door grill ! could not understand how in de world i canfall while im grabbing to de grill !! ) den i sprain my ankle minorly . den open le door , took out my things . feel so funny keep laughing at myself . den jiu nbm . den meet up daniel at 8+ , thinking peii him go home as he shower n unpack his duffle bag . but sway ~ he forgot his key . so dere it goes , 2nd time in a day im being locked out of de door . den peii him walk around n ask for his keys from ppl he know . in de end , 10pm everyone rush back n gave him keys . NTS ! wad an " eventful " day .

Saturday , 27th sept 2008
daniel have guard duty on sunday 28th , so he nid to book in early on sat nite . went ovr to his house n he packed his duffle bag once again to get rdy to go back camp at nite . he nid to do alot things today , like taking photo , getting some chips , getting some stationary n stuffs dat he's gonna nid in bunk . we left his house to come ovr to my house at 3+pm or 4pm ? i cant remember . den in which he left his bag at my house , n we went to chong pang n get his stuff . meet up min at ard 8+pm to get my spare phone back . ( my k660i has been in bad condition , since it keep tripping itself outta my hand time n time again , so i nidda get back my phone n get it to service bah . ) den hmx ate dinner b4 daniel went back to his camp .

well small lil things happen along in these few days , argument , fights n all . i really dno wtf is happening to me . maybe i nid a gd time out . especially my mum's been nagging like as though de monk chanting . if chanting , i think i still might be able to listen finish n get it inside my brain , but her chant . for god sake . got de urge to stuff food into her mouth n make her quite for one whole week ! really bth when she starts to open her mouth . it din do me any gd . it just add up to my stress n its really getting me tired out .

sunday 28th sept
was thinking of swimming , dated char bor , but she say pool alot ppl she ps duwan to go . omfg . so wad we did is stroll ard in popular in which i spent money on some stationary n books to prepare things or write things bah . ( ps , idk wad im trying to say here . contradicting my thinking n my words now ! )

monday 29thsept
been a really sad day today . morning went swimming with char bor . den went ovr to her house , n emo all de way till i reach home . guess idk wad im thinking after all . said things which hurt daniel i guess . idk . been crying for mostly today . nbm . its over . nth much to add on . just tot of saying a nice sryy to daniel . n trying to tell everyone , i really dun understand wad GUYS are thinking about . N WORSE STILL . I DUN EVEN UNDERSTAND WAD IM THINKING ! i seriously am confused ! ohh . was having alot of complaints n discussion with char bor today , myabe dats wad extra specials added to my emo lvl today . well end of stories i guess ?

sryy everyone about de emoing n lame stories .
signing off , Rinx33 .

2008-09-23T14:33:00.002+08:00

ive alot to blog about ? well start from where i also dno , time n date of wadever happen , i also cant remember clearly . but i knew i spent my whole week with my baobei daniel .

well starting with wad ever i remember .
Saturday , 13th sept .
was mid autum fes today , so i decide to make a lie n stay out today . lied to mum say celebrate ,
but was at daniel house slping overnite . lols ~ cant remember wad happen le ,
so many days ago . give me time to think den i reblogg about it again .

14th sept -18sept -> my stm's working , cant remember much thing dat happen !!
give me some time to recall on wad happen . TQ ~

friday , 19th sept .
went to baobei house . ah yi went to work so daniel have to look after xiong xiong .
well since he couldn't come to yishun , so i went to his house instead .
den we look after xiong xiong tgt , poor xiong xiong . vomited a few times .
den he's so naughty dat day . keep on duwan slp , sabo tio baobei tio scold .
den well bao bei cooked rice with peppermint omelette . very nice . =)
den peii bao bei look after xiong xiong all dat , until ah yi come home .
den ah yi made him run errands . so funny lurhs his reaction .
well tried dota dat day while daniel was out . so omfg .
i dun even know wad im doing inside de game . =.=
den play halfway ah yi wan me help her wash bottles . so i stop de game .
n rush into kitchen n help . den wash hao le , jiu wanting to blog lurhs .
i type a post was wanting to update blogger .
but dno where de post go . so i re post everything ,
quite sad , cuz dat post i was typing near to end ,
den daniel return from first errand , bu hao yi shi to let him read b4 i finish typing ,
so i click save , but in de end comp ate my post . lols ~
den jiu nbm , daniel went for 2nd errand , this time with me tgt . =)
send finish de things le , took a detour home . got direct bus 22 home ,
but we lame abit , take to amk den take 22 home again . >.<
den we rest awhile , den ah yi pack up things , she going back to malaysia for a visit .
den i waited for ah yi , den peii daniel go suntec dere area send ah yi to bus .
den after dat walk a long way rush for train to go home .
well was lucky to have board de last train home . den reach le home jiu drop . lols ~

saturday , 20th sept .
supposingly dated hao , clement , yz , jack , bryant to go to suntec .
as in 2nd celebrating for hao in advance , was very bad . i din turn up .
cuz i was at baobei house , and im kinda feeling tired n buang dat day .
worse thing , i only got $20 bucks with me , how to survive ?
so in de end i decide not to go for de outing .
Sry guys . though now say all these are late .
but i still owe u guys an apology .
den i stay at daniel house until nite time den i went home .
daniel cooked today . cooked noodle for tony , n pancake egg thingy ? idk wad its called .
very nice . n i helped in cooking =)
actually zhenzhen wan cook for tony , but tony duwan to eat her cooking =X
so ask daniel to cook . den daniel cook alot le , den zhenzhen n zhengfu say wan go out .
he qi dao ~ saying zhenzhen pian wo zhu fan . ( zhenzhen bluff me to cook food )
so funny lurhs . den time n time again , i shoot daniel indirectly n we joke ard .
was a very happy day . though was feeling abit blur dat day ,
couldn't exactly remember all the thing happen .

sunday , 21st sept .
lols ~ was wide early over at daniel house dat day . den eat daniel cook de egg prata ! hahaas .
im like so lucky , he can cook very well . lol ~ you kou fu le ! kekees .
den i remember daniel bought me to pet safari dat day . saw alot of puppies n pets .
so cute !!!! den met up daniel de frene , neo , to pass him things .
den daniel peii me go ah ma house ! kekees . den he met my 2 uncle n ah ma le .
den i peii him try take bus to his vacation camp . NEE SOON CAMP !
joked alot along de way , like de " EMO " . hahaas .
well de camp was so near to my house . take bus from chong pang less den 10 min >.<
den dat nite haf a long chat with daniel , n well was so touch to hear him say alot of things .
feeling more ease minded le . =) hopefully i can have more time communicating with him .
den we can get to know each other more . =)

monday , 22nd spet .
was up wide early . 6.30am ! hahaas . meet daniel for breakfast n peii him wait for bus .
omg lurhs . his duffle bag looks so fully packed .
hahaas . den meet carol at 11 + am to go amk arcade .
den omg lurhs . hahaas . play awhile she say wan eatch movie .
den we go wdland watch Mirror . walao . feel de show so scary .
den carol said smth made me wanna laugh . she give me chewing gum ,
n said to me , " wad if we shock tio den swollow de gum ? " walao , heard le i laugh siahh . =.=
den bought baobei buy for me de pocky go in eat . * so xingfu ~ *
den went carol house after dat . actually wanted go job hunt , but we play until forget . ><
so in de end we did nth today !

tuesday , 23rd sept .
lols ~ today going out with carol to wdland . dno wad might happen . so im off to meet her now .
will blog again if smth great happens .

signing off , Rinx33 .
( Mr. Daniel , i've read ur blog le . was really touch with de things written there . xie xie ni . wo ai ni . hopefully with those words , i'll ease my mind bah . take cares . Jy in ur camp too . x33 170808 . )

2008-09-16T11:44:00.002+08:00

ive been thinking thru alot since de moment i wake up until now . was really thinking thru n thru . i guess i really nid some gd time break ? idk . alot has flooded me since de moment i open my eyes . maybe im not really as strong as wad i used to be ? i miss de old days though . those days , dat i've alot of happy memories with alot of ppl . idk , i think i just a gd break ? been abit stress up . hopefully able to cool down abit bah . taking a break alone . hoping to have some peaceful times around .

went to baobei's house to ton de day b4 , did nth much , just went to east coast awhile n after dat slp over at his house . den ytd evening went over to carol house to dl DJ Max into baobei's psp . was really noob in dat game though . lols ~ den came home dat time , had a damn freaking quarrel with mum . was feeling tired of wad she saying . told her dozen of time wad im planning n she just can't freaking digest my words into her brain . fine . i dun care . let her do wad she wan . i dun give a damn anymore .

slept late until around 10am today , was feeling quite low . idk lerhs . nbm . it doesn't matter .

2008-09-14T02:33:00.003+08:00

been really swirling for de past 1 hr . guess its gd just to leave things de way it is ?
been really mindful about alot of things . n lessons learnt .
wad to do in such a swirling world . ive never know im facing such big vexes .
to be or not to be . i guess . i still nid some time .
reminiscene , Rinx33 .

2008-09-14T00:45:00.003+08:00

been a long time never update , so tot of dropping by n update abit . not bz just plain lazy to type . lols ~ can see from me tagging in de borad but not updating bah . hmx been abit " bz " this week . bz dating . lols ~ mon tue slacked at home , or did i meet up carol ? cant remember , den basically did nth at all . den wed went to pulau tekong BMTC to attend baobei's graduating ceremony . went with ah yi , tony n xiong xiong . well was quite an experience since im first time dere . tooked de ferry , hmx got to know some of baobei's frene . hmx den have been spending most of the time with him these few days . other den my slping time showering n some lil breaks , i spent almost de rest of my times together with him . went out walk n well chatted quite alot with him these 2 days . went to ank hub today , or shuld i say ytd ? but anyway with baobei , hao , clement , bryant n cheewee . den went to eat n walk ard . den watched babylon A.D . thruout de movie , quite confused with the storyboard . see no moral of story also . well but overall still acceptable , since i paid de money out . lols ~ den walk ard with baobei in yishun after we parted with hao n clement . den wasted time in popular n walk ard , den pei baobei walk to bus interchange den i parted with him n came home . have been thinking of changing my blogskin , but couldn't find any liking , so temporary will leave it as wad it is , until i find my liking one bah . den nth do blog abit , n chat around in msn . basically my lifes still quite lifeless in some sense ! lols ~ hopefully things get better . okays duwan to type le ! lols ~

signing off , Rinx33 baobei , 17-08-08 .

2008-09-07T08:35:00.002+08:00

whoots almost one whole week never update ~
hmx did nth much this week . fri , 5th , went out with sa , candy , tim , dedric .
went to watch movie , i re-watched journey to the center of de earth .
b4 went up to movie , we all pei dedric go kfc eat . he eat really damn fast .
den went to watch de show . still feel its nice though its de 2nd times i watch .
den pei sa went to eat subway . den went to marina square . lols ~
we walk from orchard to cine b4 movie , n cine to marina square after movie .
like as though we're really damn free to spend all our time doing nth =.=
reach le marina square , saw smth about de nba thingy . see awhile , den went off .
tot wanna to go bowling or pool de , but in de end we din , so went arcade .
dedric , tim n sa play awhile den we go out stand at staircase .
den me tim n dedric smoke . lols ~ dat day i actually smoke alot bah . lols ~
den sit at de chair at lvl 1 open space , den chat awhile . n i chat on phone with hubby .
so funny , tim became tina ! lols ~ so unforgettable . lols ~
den we went to ljs eat dinner . wah sae eat le my throat cmi diao .
lols ~ den tim n ded went off first . den candy sa n me , we walk ard find mac .
cuz candy wanna eat mac de cheapo ice cream . den we went n buy .
den walk ard about 90.30pm we all went home le . dats my friday .
abit sad . cuz tim says we no plan den quite sianx .
heard le abit de-moti to arrange more outing .
but nbm . dec den arrange bah . better plan next time .

den ytd sat , 6th , got all my pay . so happy n went shopping with carol .
spent alot of money le . cant keep spending le . bo lui le ! lols ~
bought quite a few things . lols ~

den ltr going to meet hubby le . now waiting for my shower turn . =)
end of stories ~~ signing off , Rinx33 .

2008-09-01T11:20:00.002+08:00

sat n sun most of the time spend with hubby . hmx ytd , sunday , dear peii me go kbox with hao they all . got jian ming ( dno actual spelling ) , jack , hao , bryan , yz . quite fun . bryan so ke ai ! =.= kekees . though i go awhile niahh , but was happy to spend time with them bah . jack so funny . keep trying to geng fei yu qing . lols ~ den hao also . wth ~ lols ~ hmx taken picture with them , but i haven got chance to send it over to my phone . wait until hao send me bah . =)

nth much happen , except just now 4am i wake up realise i having fever . temperature as high as 38.4`C ( <- dun have de degree sign . ) den jiu nb , go take panadol n drink some water jiu fall back to slp . now at least better le . temperature 37.6`C . better den morning .

okays nidda get a lil rest . hopefully i can recover soon .
signing off , Rinx33 bao bei . 170808 .

2008-08-30T09:06:00.002+08:00

wow ~ a few days never update le . well am here again . hi all =)
anyway was bz dating these few days . cuz daniel sick le , den fall out camp .
thurs nite , supposingly was to peii wen go zouk , but den ~ daniel sick le , den he report sick , book out le . den so i ps wen go peii him . cuz i also have not enough financial to go zouk dere n have fun . so i go daniel house stay ovr . so scary . slp with his mum =x lols ~
den daylight le , i faster come back home =x den ytd morning 8am rch home , eat le breakfast do abit of things den jiu fall flat on bed . den afternoon about 4pm went back to daniel house . den came home n reach home about 11pm . shower le , call carol chit chat awhile , abt 1am , bth jiu fall flat again le . today 8.30am wake up , supposingly nid to wash clothes , but am too tired le . dun care le . duwan to wash le . at most at nite tio scold . T.T

okays dats roughly wad happen , nth much surprising de . so yup , dat all le .
signing off , Rinx33 bao bei daniel . 170808 .

2008-08-26T12:16:00.004+08:00

ytd was such a blue monday . so many things happen . makes me kinda stress up . well at least now feeling better le bah . ytd went swimming with liing . so funneh when we putting on de stupid make up . guess im not suitable it for it after all . -.- den after dat walk around with liing in yishun den she go shape her eyebrow at chong pang . after dat we went to sun plaza walk walk . den she buy nail polish , eye liner n make up remover . den nth do i meet up with jess n carol . den slack ard sun plaza , go coffee bean n all until 9+ den go carol house . i nth do drink abit brandy , den watch tv until 11+ den go home . reach home le , couldn't slp , so daydream until about 2am den slp . feeling so tired . so so so so tired . guess things really wasn't as wad i tot of bah . fine nth much to blog le . ohh anyway de pic shows how bad liing n me was at taking pic . =.= lols ~

signing off , Rinx33 bao bei , 170808 .

2008-08-25T09:11:00.002+08:00

hmx ytd went to hubby house again . hubby de marmiie buy de pancake very nice !! hahaas . anyway hubby de marmiie teach me some sauce ytd . well although is me cutting de chilli , though its spicy , though i rub my eyes n gotten so painful , but i enjoy making de sauce de process . its a chace to get close to hubby de family . n his marmiie is quite joker , had a fun time together with them . =) hubby de brother so funneh also . trying to prank a joke , but no one co-operate with him . lols ~ den ytd peii hubby all de way until b4 he book in back camp . den i go carol house . lols ~ go carol house , idk y sudden craving of food . so i bought some choco n food to eat . say hao wan drink de brandy , in de end forget =.= lols ~ den came home very tired , bth , shower le , msg awhile jiu fall le .

den today wake up just now got slight fever . but nbm . now better le . anyway say hao wan meet liing go swimming de , say hao 9am , think she still sleeping bah =x lols ~ nbm wait for her wake up den . =)

hmx will be idling for de rest of today . tmr start to job hunt since angela din call me le . signing off , rinx33 .

2008-08-24T09:59:00.002+08:00

yawn ~ a lazy morning for me . but well quite happy ytd . cuz had a long chat with bao bei . well hmx so funneh . mama wake me just to ask me whose sweater is it . lols ~ of cuz is bao bei de . but is bao bei de brother de . lols ~ hmx went to cwp ytd . walk thr de whole shopping again . well realise its kinda empty in dere . nth much to see . hmx spend a happy day with bao bei .

but smth happen last night which spoil my mood . met tio someone . so omfg lurhs . nbm . dun care . den hmm ytd hubby so dorts . put me in conference to listen to wad he chat with dat char bor . =.= aiy okays . nth much to say . wanna rest awhile n think thru something . hopefully today will be better den ytd bah . =)

signing off , Rinx33 bao bei , 170808

2008-08-23T07:50:00.002+08:00

hihi again to everyone . anyway ytd quite eventful bah . kekees . don went for her ear operation . hmx glad she finish it le . at least . dat lump is gone . =x hmx guess its a hard time for her bah . shuld be quite painful bah . hmx quite funny . cuz we think de doc abit cmi . lols ~ opps during stiching is very scary for ur patient de lerhs =.= lols ~ anyway was quite shock . cuz when we collecting medicine dat time , don's ear bleed . =.= scary ~ hahaas . den everyone so shock faster went to find de doc =.= lols ~ den doc gave her the gauze thingy n wipe . lols ~ den honestly was quite shock . den anyway me n jess . so bad ~ lols ~ while waiting for her dat time , two of us starve until like hungry cat . bth , went to eat leaving auntie alone at dere wait . thinking back to it , was feeling quite bad larhs =.=
anyway after peii carol go de operation thing , den i go meet hubby =.=
lols ~ so funneh , his whole big gang of bunkmate behind him . xia si wo siahh . lols ~
den tot wanna go whitesand walk walk , walk in niahh , scan thru de place using eyes , den cmi suah ~ den we go hubby house . den meet his mama =.= before go in dat time , wah my leg nearly tremble . lols ~ heng able to control le . lols ~ den talk to his mama , find dat his mama quite nice . able to chat . den erm ~ =.= his brother . so funny while chat . den hubby send me home . den we say hao wan hubby take last bus , in de end he stay n chat with me until about 1.30am =.= den now feeling quite happy . cuz feel quite happy . his mum thinks im okays ~
V^_^V okays blog till here le .

signing off Rinx33 , x33 bao bei hubby . =)

2008-08-21T11:02:00.002+08:00

hmm ytd had a small arguement with Bao Bei . guess things haben stable down yet bah . anyway . ytd went to eat paddy's fish with Carol n mich . well its not very nice . met tio Jia min n Joey . =x den just break de news to Jia min . she tot was "him" but den kinda relief when i said it isn't . den she tell Joey about "him" . de way they say was like wah ... bth type ... kekees . nbm lurhs . den now having slight fever . din really have enough rest n stuff though im at home . cuz i din really bother to take my meals n rest at right time =.=

ohh . Angela haben call me , so im not sure when i might start work . but had a dream ytd dat she sms me n tell me to go work . its just a dream or was it true ? idk kinda like real but yet fake ? lols ~ hao le . i go watch anime le . nth to do . rofl ~

signing off , rinx33 . * 170808 *

2008-08-20T17:02:00.002+08:00

starting to watch ouran high school host club le . quite not bad .

anyway just remember ytd bao bei tell me he's gonna tell his mum about us . well he did le . i also told my mum le . hmx bao bei . no matter wad happen lets face it together bah . dun wish u to suffer alone . anyway bao bei call me go meet his ma . as wad ive said , my boss haben call me . we'll talk about it again bah . =) x33 bao bei .

signing off , rinx33 bao bei . *170808 *

2008-08-20T10:04:00.002+08:00

ytd smth happen le . bao bei tell me about a gal his bunkmate intro de thing . feel so heartpain after heard it . but well nbm bah . its over le . bao bei . love you . hmx hasn't had enough slp . ytd slpt at about 3.30am . mind preoccupy n cant slp though . hmx den today early in morning 6.35am jiu wake up call bao bei le . din slp much after de call . very tired . but im still fine bah . only eyes swollen =.= anyway bao bei , congrats u pass de stairs ? though i dunno wad it is =x .

ohh ytd auntie mee lee so cute ~ kekees . jess ur mum really hen kawaii . likes auntie so much . din feel distance away when talking to her most of de time . =)

hao le i dunno wad to blog about le . when have new things happen den i blog le bah . =)

2008-08-19T10:32:00.000+08:00

blogskin changed . hahaas . personalised de wordings font . hope it looks nice . =)

2008-08-19T09:39:00.002+08:00

wow ~ my life is totally so UNCOOL ~ okays i think my boss hasn't got time to call me up . cuz up till now she still haben call . den nbm ~ den ive been rotting at home in which i feel so lame about . so boring at home . anyway finish reading my vampire knight . hope de other chapter faster come out . its a really nice comic . cant wait to finish de whole story . x33 =)

ohh anyway i intend to say out loud here , dat im in love with bao bei . kekees . felt quite happy to have accept him . cuz he's nice to me =) okays . wanna get back to bed . really feeling slpy n bored ~~

signing off , Rinx33 bao bei . 170808 . =D

2008-08-17T16:55:00.003+08:00

blogging blogging blogging ~

ytd went out with candehh . kekees . so fun . we walk ard orchard do nth , n we ate fried mars bar ! kekees . well although i ate de most =.= den we have nice long chat . den after that i went to sembawang to meet jun yi . actually not his real name . kekees . but duwan to say his real name !! =x den we watch movie , journey to the center of the earth . quite a nice show . but i tio shock . got one part is de pirahanna fish jump out of water . xia si wo . den got dinosaur . so funneh . watch too much dinosaur movie , tot de dinosaur is gonna suddenly pop out . who knows . de way de dinosaur show face so funneh . =.= over quite a nice show . my rating 3/5 .

den we went to find carol n mich at KFC ! den i buy one bottle of vodka qing carol . den carol go home eat her food do her thing den come out find wo n jun yi . den we sit at 483 ton , we chat n do nth basically . jun yi so quiet ~~ den i tried to entertain but i bth ~ so let carol be entertainer . den we slack until about 4am jun yi mention wanna buy fruits n flower for praying later . den we walk to sun plaza den remember got 511 wet market . den very funneh . we sit at mac . jun yi so early bird , 4+ am eat breakfast le . =x den we sit dere chat do nth . den 5+ going 6am dat time say wan go home . den jiu nbm . we walk to 511 at ard 6am . de auntie say de flower not so early open . jiu nbm lurhs ~ den me n jun yi send carol home , den we sit at void deck chit chat . kekees . den jiu about 8am we go buy de flower n fruit , den jun yi peii me take 859 to yishun . den we jiu seperate way , go home . den i reach home , took a long shower . den i eat le breakfast , use comp until 10am den slp .
jux now 4.30pm woke up , brush hao teeth eat dinner , sit here blog ! hahaas .
was a lil bored last nite . surprisingly , im de most not slpy one among de 3 of us =x kekees . den had fun chatting larhs . den got carol entertain also =x kekees . CAROL DARLING AI SI NI LE LARHS ! kekees ~

hao le hao le dun crap le . wanna watch anime again ~
signing off , rinx33 .

2008-08-15T12:08:00.003+08:00

okays have been thinking alot these few days , guess ive recover from dat mood low days bah . hmm cant wait for VK 2 . really into watching it these few days =.= watch n watched again . repeat like nvr watched b4 rofl .

today is quite a boring day . doing nth now . so blog some craps up . hopefully tmr is better for me =)

signing off , rinx33 .

2008-08-14T17:17:00.003+08:00

guess i just needed a gd time to pack up my unease feeling bah .

these few days , alot of memories came back to me . which i dun really wish to have had happen . but since it happen , i think i should face up to it bah . thinking back to the times im with bear . n jon . haben been contacting them bah . anyway i did sever ties with jon .
so i tot of writing down my feelings now . smsed bear a few days ago . in which idk y i would , but well thinking back to those days . finally realise dat , giving in to a relationship doesn't really mean love . as in . wad me n him is feeling , i guess is just habitual . well 3 yrs of relationship , until now it end for over like almost 4 mths , idk really wad im feeling yet . keep thought of those days , early in de morning i woke up , he would be on de way to my house carrying breakfast . when he reach , he would lend me his shoulder n let me rest a lil more . those days . on surface we look like sweet couple , but who knows wad we're actually feeling ? well over le bah . my sensitivity is quite slow recently . just realise alot we've done , n how we tried to make each other happy . such relationship really is tiring after all . moved on from it , so just having a lil miss in some thing in de way they used to be .
hmm jon memories came back about these 2 days . well had been thinking how he has been recently after we sorta fight dat day in messenger chat . well i know i've harsh on words . n i did things dat i regret , as i , i regret sever ties with him , but on another hand , i think its wad best for us bah . seems like he've moved on real far before me . but well me n him dun really belong to same world in de first place . actually wanna thx him for saying break up dat day . wasn't really feeling disappointed or sad now . just feel dat well . he thinks about it le . n its de best way for everything to moved on . not really been doing anything is really causing me vexes . so i guess im happy about dat break up bah . it made me realise how slow ive been . how ive wasted my time on meaningless things . n well i seen thru enough of childish relationships . i just wanna concentrate in things i haven been doing . im on working it , so im continuing all de way now . so yup dats all for de memories part .

well had been really tired today , de day b4 , 12th aug i cleared work at isetan scotts . n ytd haben been resting well , went to meet jess derh marmiie in de morning n pass her punch card . den came back home , wan to slp , but sorta having insomia . den never mind went to watch anime . den go out with hao to find liing . liing put hair extention . rofl . took such a long time some more . den nbm b4 meet liing , hao peii me go meet my future lao ban niang . chatted with her for about an hour plus . den we went isetan scotts de basement 1 buy sushi n see liquor . den after dat walk to find liing at orchard plaza . on de way , we stop at isetan wisma . actually is my mistake . =.= cuz tot i wan to go taka find singlan . in de end . saw isetan , dno niahh go in walk one round . den realise is at taka not isetan . so very funneh we walk for nth . den nbm we continue our way to orchard plaza . den walao ! we nearly lost our way . cuz i usually shop niahh , dun remember building name . =.= den jiu nbm . met tio liing . wth she say she going to meet heng . rofl . so we stand outside ps , i smoke , liing eat sushi , hao do nth . den we go take mrt . in train play hao de psp =X walao i realise im naturally reaction slow de ren . play de stupid drum niahh . also can fail =.= hahaas . den talk to hao awhile n we do nth awhile , den i alight at yishun go find carol . reach dere , walk one whole big round around de foodcourt den find tio them . zzz . den nbm . sit down see them eat de indian rice . den mich says now is dunno summer or spring time . trend in orange lipstick . =.= actually is de stupid rice de colour stain tio mouth n teeth . =.= den they eat finish play psp . walao ehh . 7+ play till 8pm . win le lurhs . den we saw ho yy . actually say wan go off le . stand up niahh , den i tell carol ho yy is dere . den someone say duwan to talk to her . faster sit back continuing playing =.= . den i jitao bo wei gong (=_=''') . den jiu nbm do nth wait them , den about 8.10 we go buy thing n take bus . den i slack at carol house until 11+pm den reach home =.= rofl ~

den today more miserable den ytd . wake up niahh , watch vampire knight all de way until now den blog . =.= hao le , nidda shower again den go rest le . very slpy . =.=

signing off , rinx33 .

2008-08-13T08:25:00.002+08:00

unable to differentiate between my happy n sadness now . cant really c things anymore . im falling . time nided to seal up de pain . things just getting worse . much worse den wad ive imagine . tears fall out uncontrollably . why do u appear in my dream at such a rundown time in my life ? i really cant understand wad i can do now . my heart failing me i guess . sadd .

rinx33 , alone starring into empty space , blurry eyesight , i cant see my way clearly anymore .

2008-08-10T10:03:00.002+08:00

time travel so fast . incredibly , my sad memories was over for more den 2 mths le . guess i still haben really let go bah . keep thinking back . dunno for wad also . but well nth i can do le bah . =( ohh . ytd had a terrible nightmare , n i cried in my dream . i dreamt one of my close brother had an accident . i cried until i wake up . i hope dat dream wun come true bah . i love my brothers n sisters , so i hope nth would happen to them bah . den i had a 2nd dream . i dreamt dat i went for tattooing n de shop is just at my void deck . such a stupid dream . but well i wanna go for a tattoo soon bah . ohh . anyway , today is de last 3rd day at scotts le . time really flies bah . now my heart feeling so messy . well i was thinking . am i right in de first place ? i kinda dun understand de reasons n meaning of wad im doing now . y am i afraid suddenly ? im really feeling mess up . how i wish to have dat shoulder dere for me to cry . i miss him . really , i do . i really wish things wouldn't have turn out this way bah . =( anyway . these 2 days alot happen ard me . im kinda falling soon . with no supporting shoulder , n no one to turn to . im kinda lost now . feeling very very upset . hais ~ guess its gd time to give myself a break after de work at scotts bah . wanna have sometime to myself bah . really miss him . simple euu special love . is it really dat way ? i dun think so bah . my happy days are over i guess .

signing off , rinx33 .
* hiding in my blanket crying all alone . where are u when i nided u most ? *

2008-08-09T09:51:00.003+08:00

wah sae abit lazy siahh , dat day off day went to jess de house with carol . wth . so funneh lurhs . we watched congkak . so scary . we shout like siao like dat in some parts . rofl . think de most not afraid de is carol le lurhs . lols ~ she like very calm dat day =.= n bz playing her psp . rofl . im thinking of buying one too . but too ex le . so not for time being bah . =( will try to find again bah =) ohh today is de last 4th day of my work . den i can change jobby le . =) faster GET PAY ! i wan to go clubbing with kazefly =.= hahaas . anyway ytd cleared up things with jun yi le . hope things wun happen again le bah . i really tired nowadays . aiy dun talk about all these le . ytd hide in my blanket n cry . dun even know for wad the fuuck . maybe is because old memories came back to me bah . seems like i still haben really let go bah ='( my heart's in a mess now . wish someone will be here to guide me out soon bah . =( looking forward to 16th aug , going out with candehh . n 20+ aug , going out with cui cui my new honey =x kekees . missing my brothers n sisters alot . brothers never call me go out !!!!! especially dat botak korr who got da sao de , n de other clamster who very long never tag in my blogger le . hope u see this know dat im still waiting for u all to date me out .

signing off , rinx33

2008-08-06T09:49:00.002+08:00

whoots ~ counting days to the end of fair . today end , tmr my OFF DAY ! finally can get a nice long slp =.= muahaha ~ anyway , wanted to buy low heels suddenly , but haben got time to look at it yet . after clear this work i wanna go buy siahh =.= hahaas . ohh anyway dated kazefly to clubbing , not sure when yet , still nidda wait till i got my money ! kekees . den hmm ytd saw zoe tay =x her son so cute ! my goodness . den last nite saw liu ling ling , de 881 de char bor . so cute . tell me wher find dictionary , de pen n all . den i ask back is it stationary =.= den she say ya she said wrong rofl ~ actually these actress are frenely de lurhs . hahaas . ohh . saw so many b4 le . cuz work time always so zhun . will c tio de . saw felicia chin n zheng ge ping at sengkang dat time , now saw zoe , liu ling ling , and another gal i forget her name . den de autie behind me says she saw joi . well i miss it , no choice ~ hahaas . not very into these star chasing , but sure am gd luck to see them each time i work . hahaas . hao le . all these are my craps today . gotta go get ready work le . today last day den rest le ! den work 5 more days n im clearo ! hahaas . =)

signing off , rarax33 .

2008-08-05T10:06:00.002+08:00

my god . today is 7th day le , time passes so fast . n my energy is almost being drain out . GD thing . thurs is my off day , just 2 more days bah . =)
ohh anyway business wasn't very gd . n i found alot of other work at dere =.=
kekees . ppl dere are very very nice . gd working surrounding for me =)
hmm wanna go get ready go out le . very soon it'll be 12th , n this work will end . =)
den i can have a 2 days break n start working again =)
tired le . but no choice have to continue on . i've just pick myself up , so not gonna stop so soon ohh . =) hao le , if got anything den i blog again bah .
Rinx33 .

2008-08-02T23:58:00.001+08:00

today fourth day le , did nth , not much customer also . made 2 new frenes , well quite okays bah de working enviro . nth much to say le . take cares all .

signing off , rinx33 .

2008-08-02T09:26:00.000+08:00

hahaas hi all again . ytd was de 3rd day at isetan scotts . all went well . but well quite sad , today de auntie i talk to most is on break =.= sian ~ den nbm , ytd made 3 frenes . =) guess im opening up to around me le bah . hahaas . =)

nth much to say le , will tell u all if i remember anythin .
signing off , rarax33 .

2008-08-01T09:57:00.000+08:00

ytd was 2nd day , all went well =D today's 3rd . it'll be better bah . =D

signing off , rinx33 .

2008-07-31T09:12:00.002+08:00

whoots ytd is my first day work at isetan ohh . so tired =.= 10am stand till 8pm . supposingly is 9pm , but dat stupid shoe , den nbm . got 2 auntie very nice de . keep helping me hide =.= well they call me take off my shoe n stand in a corner . hahaas . so nice lerhs . den another auntie help me ask for earlier go home cuz my leg really very pain . den de supervisor allowed , so i 8pm go off le . so tired when i reach home . just woke up from slp , blogging here since i working at 12 pm later . =D well although this job quite hard to work , but well d ppl dere are gd . so i guess i must JY ren over this 14 days bah . might have an off day . was thinking wad to do on dat day =x hahaas . hao le . i go eat breakfast n get ready le . 11.15am nidda go out le . =)

signing off , rinx33

2008-07-29T18:41:00.002+08:00

hahaas . am here to blog again . tmr gonna get bz le . hahaas . anyway today went to raffles to find carol darling . den peii her until about 3pm den i go off le . mark treat me again . so bu hao yi shi siahh . but well its custard horn by renaldo . hahaas , den 3pm i go find my dearie . hahaas . dearie so hao . peii me go shop n buy my thingy . tmr must JY le . hahaas , den today eat mac with dearie . hahaas . ohh . i cant find de shirts i wan , so in de end i bought polo Tees again . SIAN ~ anyway bought a better shoe le . hope wun make my leg suffer tmr bah . =D de shoe so expensive ~ T.T anyway dun care . but well my shirt better le . not those cheapskate T shirt look le . hahaas . den must faster Jy earn money le . hahaas . tmr nidda wake up wide early , so tonight nidda slp earlier . so will be gone from net by de time 9pm . hahaas . ohh anyway . frenes can go find me at taka bah . will be dere these few days =D
hao le nth to blog about le . gonna go shower n rest le . tmr's a long day . =x
anyway might be away from blogger n msn for quite a few days . so if im mia dun get shock .
frenes contact me thru hp . only nite time or early morning den will reply ohh . TQ ~

signing off , rarax33

2008-07-29T10:16:00.002+08:00

h0h0h0 ytd went down to raffles le . hahaas . met tio jess honey , michelle babby , carol darling , n rina , chicken , zheng wei . kekees . they're so funny derhs . =.= i rch dat time din know they were dere . cuz they're eating sakae . den jess honey n carol darling tell wo . hahaas . den nbm lurhs kekees . din see them b4 , its de first time =x den we play around with de toys . den chicken play de stunt robot car , den he play half way pass to mich . den he kik tio de stunt robot , den de front right broke . horr horr ! kekees . 2nd time the toy break le , somemore its de same side ! so coincidence . kekees . den chicken n zheng wei ownself go walk walk . den i very bored go smoke . den come back they discuss about chicken de cow ring piercing . supposingly he put a ring to look like a cow de , but cuz he tio caught , he put a small dumbell inside , n if din see carefully , it looks like ..... =.= u know de larhs . hahaas . den his lip got 2 piercing . so nice . i wan go have one too =X kekees . den rina got tongue piercing . some more put 2 dumbell . omfg lurhs ! cool dao ~ hahaas . but well idk whether i'llbe getting any in future . cuz my mum =.= . lets see how things goes bah . =D ohh . anyway i've tot thru , i wan tattoo . no matter wad , its not gonna stop me . =.= den ytd after they left , me n carol work . den mark very hao siao . 3 of us was dicussing about his unglam slipper , den he say he xue huai le . me n carol tot y he learn bad n de slipper got any link merhs . den he correct himself , xue zi huai le . den i bth ownself keep laughing =.= wth , he was saying shoe , while we was thinking about learning bad =.= walao . so funneh de lurhs . completely bo link . den nbm jiu suah le . den mark kor kor so nice . treat us to dinner . wah sae dat meal DAMN EX LURHS . we ate subway =.= . all call turkey breast . den me n mark de veggie completely same , but i put mayo sauce , he put honey mustard . den we 2 mix up about our sandwich . kao siao . but in de end we still got wad we wan . n 3 ppl $19 . is ex de lurhs ! den so funneh when buying . carol cough n throat abit swollen lurhs . den she die die wan toast . den mark keep saying ur throat ... repeat a few times liaos den tell dat guy toast =.= walao . mark really very funneh de lurhs =.= hahaas . was quite a fun day ytd . ohh something very funneh also . while we was eating , someone called carol . den mark there say smth . den carol tell de person in phone , mark is our lao ban , meaning boss . but mark ownself say , im nt ur boss , im ur collegue . =.= wth lurhs . LAME ! dorts ! well he really quite a joker also =D ohh . anyway tmr im gonna go scotts work le . =( 2 whole week no rest at all =.= bth ~ well must try to slp enough today le . =( hmm anyway gonna buy some proper clothes later . if not i'll be wearing giodano working in a branded place , with de channel LV n all =.= dorts . better get some better clothing so dat i wouldn't look weird standing dere . hahaas . ohh gonna get a new shoe too . dat damn &#_&@# shoe bite my leg until swollen de other time . better change it if not i'll be suffering for whole 14 days ! dorts . hao le back to eat my subway cookie le . so nice ~

signing off , rinx33

2008-07-28T11:38:00.008+08:00

hahaas ~ went to cy blogger n saw alot of quiz . my favourites ! so dats wad i do .
er, because idk y de html cannot publish so i'll do some summary of how the test goes .

How rare is ur personality ?
Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ISTP)
Your personality type is reserved, methodical, spirited, and intense.
Only about 6% of all people have your personality, including 3% of all women and 8% of all men
You are Introverted, Sensing, Thinking, and Perceiving.

Whats normal about you and whats not ?
You Are Fairly Normal
You scored 45% normal on this quiz
Like most people you are normal in some ways...
But you aren't a completely normal person. You're a little weird too!
Why You Are Normal:
You check your daily horoscope
You prefer fiction to non fiction
You eat the frosting first
You think fishnet stockings are trashy
You prefer your friends to your family
Why You Aren't Normal:
You are no longer with your first love
If you had to, you rather live without laughter and still have music
When you're in a car, you prefer to be the passenger
You would rather be a movie star than an astronaut
You rather screw someone over than be screwed over

How Much Lust Do You Have?
You are a fairly lustful person, but nothing out of the norm. You usually keep your lust under control, but sometimes it gets the better of you.

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?
Your Emoticon is Cool
You're not feeling particularly up or down, just relaxed and calm. You're ready for whatever is going to happen next!

What Kind of Ex-Girlfriend Are You?
You Are a Friendly Ex
While the guys you've dated haven't been perfect, you've kept most as friends
In fact, one or two of your exes may be your best friends - after all, they know you best
And though your mature attitude is awesome, make sure nothing gets too weird
Or else you could lose these friendships, simply because your exes' new women think you're *too* friendly

Do You Date Like a Man or a Woman?
You Date Like a Woman .
According to studies on dating, you date like a woman.
You tend to take romance seriously, and you're not really out for a fling.
A mental and emotional connection always comes first for you.
And rushing the physical stuff is likely to turn you off.
You're highly selective when it comes to dating, and some may say you're too picky.
You know what you want, and when you find it, you're ready to commit.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?
You Are 73% Grown Up, 27% Kid
Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.
Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

What Kind of First Impression Do You Make?
You Make a Good First Impression
You probably are making a much better impression than you realize.
Social situations can be a bit awkward for you at times, and you tend to over think what you say and do. If you make a social faux pas, you remember it a lot longer than anyone else does.
Just relax and do your best. There are little things you can do to improve your social image.
Express more of an interest in the people around you, and be a good listener.
The secret of fascinating people is that they find everyone else fascinating!

The World's Shortest Personality Test
Your Personality Profile
You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.
For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

Were You a Naughty Girl or Nice Girl this Year?
You Were Pretty Average This Year
You Were 45% Naughty, 55% Nice
You tried to be a good girl this year...
But as you know, being good isn't that fun!
If you're extra sweet, you may have enough time to get on that nice list.

The Keys To Your Life
The Keys to Your Life
Anything good that comes in your life will come from your own self reflection.
Don't rely on other people for advice. They will harm you more then help you.
Anything bad in your life comes from not giving enough... or giving too much.
Remember to not be stingy with others. But also remember not to give to the point of exhaustion.

The Personality Test at 35,000 Feet
Your Personality at 35,000 Says...
Deep down, you prefer spending time alone to spending time with others. You enjoy thinking more than talking.
You don't spend much time thinking about your place in the world. You are who you are - and people can just deal with that!
Your gift is having good ears. You are naturally musical, and you pick up foreign languages easily.
You are inspired by what is possible. Real life is often too ordinary for you.
It's very easy for you to feel happy. You can find peace with any situation.

How Skeptical Are You?
You Are Fairly Skeptical
You're not the type of person who will fall for anything...
But you do keep your mind open to all sorts of possibilities.
You figure that anything could be true. After all, the world is a strange place.
However, you're going to need some convincing before you can believe in aliens or reincarnation!

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test
You Are Balanced - Realist - Empowered
You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally.
You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go.
Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control.
Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow.
You are a realist when it comes to luck.
You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.
You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...
But you do your best to try to make your own luck.
You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order.
You realize that working the system does get you further.
You know who to defer to and who to control.
When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

How's Your Attitude?
Your Attitude is Better than 65% of the Population
You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.

What Sign Should You Be?
You Should Be A Cancer
What's good about you: you're incredibly kind, caring, and generous
What's bad about you: you can be too moody and impossible to understand
In love: you enjoy wining and dining the object of your affection
In friendship, you're: likely to depend on other friends for emotional support
Your ideal job: historian, marine biologist, or religious figure
Your sense of fashion: you dress to match your mood
You like to pig out on: classic home cooked meals, like mac and cheese

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

Will Your True Love Find You?
Your True Love Will Find You Eventually
You definitely put yourself out there a little - but you could be doing more.
If you're truly looking for love, try doing more things and meeting more people.
You don't have to actively look for love, you just need to stay active.
Be out there a little more, and the right person will find you!

The Priority Test
What's Important to You... And What Isn't:
For you, entertainment is usually your number one priority.
You don't mind having things to get done... as long as they don't pile up on you.
You have trouble giving time to any of your priorities. You life is too busy and chaotic.
You want thinking to be a high priority, but you don't take enough time for yourself.

What's Your Inner Blood Type?
Your Inner Blood Type is Type A
You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy.
You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself.
Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in.
People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal.
You are most compatible with: A and AB

How Much Have You Changed in 10 Years?
You've Changed 56% in 10 Years
You've done a good job changing with the times, but deep down, you're still the same person.
You're clothes, job, and friends may have changed some - but it hasn't changed you.

Are You Emo?
You Are 36% Emo
You're definitely not emo, but you do understand emo people a little. You are introspective, but not to the point of driving yourself crazy.

What's Your Inner Gender?
You Inner Gender is Female
You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you.
You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations.
You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves.
You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.

Are You a Morning Person or Night Person?
You Are a Night Person
For you, there's nothing worse than having to get up and moving early.
In fact, you probably don't hit your peak until well after the sun has set.
So if your struggling to make it on a normal schedule, realize it's not your fault.
You just weren't meant to do anything during the day!

Are You Good With Money?
You Are Great With Money
You know the value of a dollar - and you save and spend wisely.
By living below your means, you've set yourself up for a rich future.
And while it may hurt to sacrifice now, you'll probably have plenty of money later on.
You're on your way to riches - just keep it up.

What City Do You Belong In?
You Belong in Paris
Stylish and expressive, you were meant for Paris.
The art, the fashion, the wine!
Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park...
You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.

The Shamrock Personality Test
What Your Shamrock Says About You
You are charming, witty, and larger than life.
At times, you can be a bit impatient and inflexible. You don't like to be distracted.
You don't really consider yourself a lucky person. In your view, people create their own luck.
You are stylish, in a classic sort of way. You are particular about how you like things.

What's Your Sexual Orientation?
You Are Straight
There's not much queer about you.
So let's just say you're straight... but not narrow.

Are You A Gold Diggin' Woman?
You Are Not a Gold Digger
You go out of your way to take care of everything in your life.
Including money - which you've got plenty of, thank you very much.
And you have no intentions of being a trophy girlfriend for some bald guy.
Just make sure that hottie you met isn't scheming to be your boy toy!
As a successful woman like you knows, gold digging goes both ways these days.

Can You Make Anyone Fall in Love With You?
You Can Make 68% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You
Your seduction skills are practically legendary. You know how to close the deal.
Just don't let someone you're really into get the better of you!
As long as you keep up your end of the flirting game, you'll get the prize at the end.

How Vain Are You?
You Are 31% Vain
Okay, so you're slightly vain from time to time, but you're not superficial at all.
You are realistic. You know that looks matter. You just try to make them matter less.

What's Your Love Type?
Your Love Type: INFP
The Idealist
In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship.
For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up.
Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive.
However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space.
Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ

The Little Black Dress Test
What Your Little Black Dress Says About You
You are fearless and free spirited. You get people talking... and you don't care what they say about you.
Your style is revealing, trendy, and flirty. You love to look good.
If you were a shoe, you would be: Strappy sandals

When will you meet your next boyfriend ?
You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Months
Maybe you need a bit more time to get over an ex
Or maybe you need a confidence boost to talk to new guys
Either way, you'll find a boyfriend in time...
As long as you keep getting out there and meeting new guys

How Logical Are You?
You Are Somewhat Logical
Ok, so didn't get the majority of questions right
But you did answer some pretty tough questions correctly
Logic may not be your strong point, but you hold your own!

What Planet Should You Rule?
You Should Rule Mercury
Close to sun, Mercury has very long days - and is rarely visible to the rest of the solar system.
You are perfect to rule Mercury, because you live for the present - and can truly enjoy a day that goes on forever.
Like Mercury, you are quick and elusive. Your wit is outstanding, and you can win any verbal sparring match.
Some people see you as superficial, but in truth, you just play many roles and have many interests.
A great manipulator, you usually get what you want from people. And they're happy to give it to you.

Are You a Daring Woman?
You Are a Fierce Femme
You have a wild side, and you aren't afraid to bring it out when the time is right.
But you also know when to hang back and keep your "crazy chick" persona in check.
In fact, some of your friends may be surprised to find out how far you can take it...
You may look mild mannered, but it's all an act!

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?
You Are a Normal Girl
You are 40% Good and 60% Bad
Sure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past.
But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.

Are You Ready To Be A Wife?
You're Almost Ready to Get Married, But Not Quite
No doubt that you've warmed up to the idea of marriage and life long love
You just aren't quite ready to follow up with your desires, yet.
You may be a bit young, or a bit commitment phobic... give it time.
Concentrate on guys who you can imagine being with next year. Forever can wait.

2008-07-28T11:11:00.004+08:00

ohaiyo gozaimasu .

hahaas . ytd went to carol house slack =.= played her brother de DS . so fun .
but well i dun buy gadget thingy de . so well play b4 not suaku jiu okays le .
carol says she was thinking of buying psp . actually i also wan buy de .
but its ex u see . dun feel like wasting money on these things =(
so i think high chance im not buying bah =x
kekees . anyway ytd nite bored den zhi lian took picture =.= i know its not nice .
but just took for fun =.= . ohh might be going to raffles later to find my darling carol n ....
mark kor kor ? rofl . jess honey maybe going also =D can get to see them maybe . =D

well hao le crap enough le . go eat my porridge le =D

signingoff , rinx33 .

2008-07-26T19:58:00.004+08:00

hmx meet up with cherlyn just now . we went to void deck n slack ! hahaaas .

we chat awhile , n i do up my lego le .

well nth much happen today . so im quite bored .

well after i chat n finish my lego , den me n cher went to chong pang .

i suddenly have craving for ice cream . so we went to look for dat ice cream uncle .

but too bad we cant find him . so so sad n emo dat i din get to eat .

wanted to eat de chocolate chip de ice cream de . =(

well cher wanted peppermint . n we're both sadd . =(

den i went to buy my dinner den peii cher go wait for bus den i come home le .

den sit here blog . hahaas , chatting with frenes in msn .

bibby ! i wun lose to u de horr ! hahaas . we're having a fierce fight in msn . hahaas .

okays its just a joke =D . nth much to blog le .

here's picture of de lego . hahaas .

ohh anyway was thinking of buying a tank de lego too . if i did buy , will publish de final product here bah =D hahaas !

signing off , Rara x33

2008-07-26T11:08:00.002+08:00

heyy friends . im here to tell u all smth , my old blogger , vanilla-bunny.blogspot.com , i found new use for it le . it'll be a recording for some wisewords or quotes . well if u guys have any quotes or words to share around , can email to babby_winteryland@hotmail.com . also can tag in my blogger bah . but dun spam ohh . =D TQ ~

anyway gonna go out buy thing to cook porridge le . will blog again at nite . take cares n with love .

signing off , rarax33 .

2008-07-25T21:49:00.002+08:00

okays somehow i realise im still childish n lame . well where is my teacher ? o.0? hahaas . anyway today work also . foc again . but well ate subway for lunch . diff cookies . forget de name . but very very very nice !! den bought lego ! hahaas . hope to build n put at a cupboard . keep it in nicely . anyway has been changing to more manly recently . idk y , but i started liking things dat guys likes more de . like electronic guitar , lego , ehh cant remember , alot ? like ear expansion also . well .... cant remember much . but anyway dats not de main point . hahaas . hmx hair starting to get longer le . duwan short hair le . going for some more manly long hair style ? hope dun get too ugly jiu hao . gonna get a more hawtt hairstyle =D hmx den nidda jy work earn money le . hope my legs n endurance dun fail me bah . =D ohh . congrats to someone . u know who u are . hahaas . dun dump my darling for nth . or i'll come after u . =D

anyway tot of smth today . happily ever after . rofl . well does it exist ? hmm i dun even know if it is . but to me , it doesn't bah . well even a happily married couple can quarrel over money or some other matter . well guess i think too much recently . but well . dats me bah . hmx realise mind processing is a gd way to destress . cuz when i think i will go in different angles . not like before anymore . well kinda understand alot of logic in life . hahaas . well am feeling better . n im stop crying over small things le . hahaas . guess its wad experiences brings bah . well dun give a damn about anything now , except work n fun =D anyone care to join me ? tell me bah . hahaas . =D anyway gotta go get a shower n start fixing my lego le . shun bian nidda tot thru some personal logics bah . hmx take care all my frenes n all strangers out there . =D

signing off , rinx33 . =D

2008-07-25T10:42:00.002+08:00

hmx this 2 days was at raffles help carol work . FOC labour okays =.= hahaas . den ren shi dao " mark korr korr " . ROFL . its really fun working with them . well hmx if can hope to get more chance to work le bah . next week gonna start working under hamony le . T.T Jy bah . hmx going out soon . today is a very speial day =D anyway im happy these few days . have been really straightening out all my thoughts . hmx hope days get better for everyone bah . am sure gd things will come along as time passes by bah .

hmx love someone secretly . dun tell u who it is , let ur heart itch awhile bah . as in its so long ago de thing le . -.- misses him lots . hope someday can see u again bah . well hope u've moved on like i did . n i've really change . hope it dun shock u bah . specially have u inside my heart . secrets forever kept within u and me . 180703 <- very long ago le bah . =x hahaas . x33

signing off , rarax33

2008-07-23T10:52:00.002+08:00

hmmx . ytd went to sakae with carol . so omfg ! ehh she order alot ! hahaas . nearly bloat to death . =.= den we chat chat . den jess come down find us . den we peii her go eat her food . den we went to library read books awhile . den come out dat time she say wanna eat herbal chicken . be it bah . den go eat . den after dat , we went coffee bean eat cakes . =x den do nth until about 10 den go home . wah dat bus 859 so freakingly pro . drive so fast , plus dat bus so stuffy , plus i previously eat de things already make me feel like vomiting , den got one smell inside also . dno wads it . den i nearly puke when i get down . heng i neber . so er xin siahh . den peii jess wait bus at cp . den go home . shower hao le call jess they all chit chat . den kazefly called in conference . hahaas . den i crap alot with carol . jess n kaze was like freakingly so quiet -.- swt ... den nbm lurhs . den when mentioning to J problem , jess fired up . jitao scold T.T not i wan de marhs . sobs sobs . den i tell carol de whole story . den sian ~ nbm . when i settle this le den i say wad happen bah . anyway Jess sry . =( dun angry le ohh . den kaze teach me a new thing . live strong dun fear , face it n end it or just continue drag on . n dun fear de threathen =.= . well i fear honestly is my mum larhs . dno how to face her . T.T . den fine lurhs . chat hao , everyone go do own thing , carol n jess slp , kazefly , idk ohh . hahaas . den i rot on de chair thinking how to solve . =.= nbm let things comes naturally n slowly dissolve it bah . =( all i can do now is let it go in step by step bah . i also not 100% confirm he'll do it u see . so fine le . hao le bah . just open one eye close one eye , let things proceed on bah . =x

hao le mei you fei hua le . signing off , rarax33 .

2008-07-21T20:13:00.002+08:00

hmx today really did nth . stay at home slack n watched anime . =D watched getbackers . though old show , but i love it !! hahaas . den slp awhile , eat awhile , do nth awhile . =.= meaningless day . den now here talking CRAB n PRAWNs . so dats all for today . bbies . !

supposingly wanna go sakae but well . no money . =x

hao le , signing off , rarax33

2008-07-21T11:07:00.002+08:00

ohaiyo gozaimasu .

well ytd went carol house in de evening . den we chat awhile , n watch batman begin . so cool de car . i still love de " tank " he drives . hmx den we walk walk ard , eat dinner den sit void deck chit chat n go home . so omfg . im having fever n i anyhow run . -.-''' anyway i jux did an exciting thing ! i smoke at home . parents haben come back . dno come back le i will tio scold anot . cuz de last time i smoked , my dad found de smell . -.-''' well this is de 2nd time im smoking at home . * pray de smell is gone * muahaha . well did nth . ohh . ytd found a webby which describe about horoscopes , its quite accurate . for me anyway . ohh n well i move de blogger has another reason . cuz my old de really easy to be track out . so i guess , i jux change to a new de better . cuz if i lock , den isn't it quite stupid ? cuz i wanna share with ppl i know about my days . also wanna let new ppl came in n tag my blogger , hopefully can make some new frenes here . =D

okays nth to write le . signing off , rarax33 .

2008-07-20T10:09:00.002+08:00

ohaiyo gozaimasu !

am here to blog about ytd . went to granny house to offer prayers . went outta awhile with min to smoke . den we crazily go buy L&M red . omfg i smoke le abit gong gong -.-''' , den had lunch with de whole family . happy day it is . chatted about going sakae with de family until i nearly forget i nidda meet carol n cy at amk hub =x
hmx made it in time b4 de show . watched batman - the dark knight . very nice show . de actors really are professional . de batman is so cool . de motorbike n his car . sure is shocked . cuz batman is one of de superhero without supernatural powers . as wad cy says , he's one who uses purely garget . well amazing he's so freakingly cool ! ^_^V
den after movie bought some food n water n went to carol de gong gong house . =x well chatted alot with joyce , cy n carol . den we went mac to eat dinner . * dinner at 8+pm , so unhealthy time , n unhealthy food . * den chat chat sit sit den went up to carol de gong gong house sit awhile den take bus go home le . so funny , msged with cy . she says she saw one super duper er xin guy with alot arm pit hair . -.-''' omg im quite afraid guys with alot hair -.-'''
den anyway hahaas . call cy to intro me her frenes le . cuz i nth to do so find new frene chat n sms with =x his name is kaze , 25 yrs old . de rest of info , idk le -.-''' hahaas . this goes to show how lousy im at making frenes -.-''' hahaas . well he's kinda nice to chat with . hahaas . =D well nbm . just frene niahh ! no special meaning marhs . =x * anyway i mean wad i say , not gonna get attach anymore for time being ! *
hao le hao le , nth to say le got things den blog blog again . =D

signing off rarax33

2008-07-19T07:59:00.002+08:00

whoots ytd nite meet up with carol n jian xiang at np . hahas . but well went to jess house to meet carol first den chat awhile , eat awhile den go np meet jian xiang . well carol n jess make cheesecake . more successful den de first time , but i still like de first time de . cuz oreo taste more heavy . den at np , so qiao . met tio kar wai . he's with some frene , i only recognise one ppl , who is Randy -.-''' hahaas . heng arhs ! den i dunid to specially wait for him to take hp number . cuz yup dat time lost phone unable to contact him . den he very funny . call me save his name as mst handsome guy in de world . which mades me go eeyer . hahaas . well its jux a joke anyway . hahaas .den den ... jian xiang n carol eat at ljs . den i was outside smoking . HENG SIAHH . is i haben smoke met tio hui xuan . if not sabo tio carol they all . =x hahaas . den did nth much lurhs . slack awhile . peii jian xiang buy bag den go wait bus with them den go home le . =x

ps : smoking cuz i really feel damn emo ytd . i was at home during 4pm - 8pm n i up de volume of uver music n was crying . so incredible . their song was rock n enough to make me high le . but instead i was crying . feeling damn terrible these 2 days . well nbm bah will be better soon .

signing off , rarax33

2008-07-18T12:11:00.003+08:00

konichiwa .

well am dying . too tired . n nidda go outta with mum soon . T.T well in any case . ytd was my dad badae . feeling im such a bad gal ? peii daddy eat , n he's doing all de paying . well daddy , sry im not rich enough to pay ur meals T.T anyway daddy so nice give me pocket money ! kekes daddy , i will jy save money n work de . will return back to sch de . so no worries . anyway ytd , meet up with carol . hahaas . she go cy de house . wads more . bought back a big pack of rice . which is so freakingly heavy . well we play rock fever awhile at funland . den go sit outside de uncle shop . she drink her strawberry yogurt while i smoke finish my cigarette . decide not to buy le , although i really do nid it nowadays . im a heavy smoker now . wad u expect ohh ? hahaas . well so i tends to trying to stop ... but jy abit try to quit it bah . if i keep addicting to it , i wun have money to buy my electronic guitar in future ! anyway had a quarrel with my godfather a.k.a uncle , ytd . guess he's facing problems with dat china gal who's currently known as his gf . well dno wad de hell he thinking . but i dun care bah . is his problem if dat gal really cheat on him . well advices fall on deaf ears . but am just angry dat he's trying to stop my cousin from coming to my house . im like . WTF . ITS NOT HIS F-ING PROBLEM . but well up to him to emo on his own . hahaas . i just live de life i wan . he's not in my family list anymore . jerk he is . anyway happy dat i can slp enough finally . hahaas . okays time to go outta awhile . bbies all .

signing off , rara x3.

2008-07-17T20:08:00.003+08:00

okays am here to blog about why i wanna to change blog . cuz i wan to del away unwanted attention ! sisters shuld know who im saying . =x anyway am here to blog about wad happen ytd n today . ytd went to cy house n took some crazy photo . hahaas . looking at them are so funny . n today went to work with cy de mama . auntie so nice . treat me eat so many thing ! -.-'''

so ps siahh . sry waste ur so much money . =x anyway helped her work today . shun bian learn about merchandising job . feels quite not bad . JY bah . hope soon i can work in dat area too . JYJY ! money ! I NID U !! hahaas . anyway i'll be signing off as RARA , due to i really like akira , n dat de unwanted attention will not be so ez to find my blogger . cuz R``x`` is so easily found in goggle search . =x okays ! changing de way i blog . as well as to avoid them bah . =D

signing off , rara .

2008-07-17T16:51:00.001+08:00

my new blogger has officially established . will link back to my old blogger for some frenes to see my old posts . =D