YThursday, August 14, 2008

guess i just needed a gd time to pack up my unease feeling bah .

these few days , alot of memories came back to me . which i dun really wish to have had happen . but since it happen , i think i should face up to it bah . thinking back to the times im with bear . n jon . haben been contacting them bah . anyway i did sever ties with jon .
so i tot of writing down my feelings now . smsed bear a few days ago . in which idk y i would , but well thinking back to those days . finally realise dat , giving in to a relationship doesn't really mean love . as in . wad me n him is feeling , i guess is just habitual . well 3 yrs of relationship , until now it end for over like almost 4 mths , idk really wad im feeling yet . keep thought of those days , early in de morning i woke up , he would be on de way to my house carrying breakfast . when he reach , he would lend me his shoulder n let me rest a lil more . those days . on surface we look like sweet couple , but who knows wad we're actually feeling ? well over le bah . my sensitivity is quite slow recently . just realise alot we've done , n how we tried to make each other happy . such relationship really is tiring after all . moved on from it , so just having a lil miss in some thing in de way they used to be .
hmm jon memories came back about these 2 days . well had been thinking how he has been recently after we sorta fight dat day in messenger chat . well i know i've harsh on words . n i did things dat i regret , as i , i regret sever ties with him , but on another hand , i think its wad best for us bah . seems like he've moved on real far before me . but well me n him dun really belong to same world in de first place . actually wanna thx him for saying break up dat day . wasn't really feeling disappointed or sad now . just feel dat well . he thinks about it le . n its de best way for everything to moved on . not really been doing anything is really causing me vexes . so i guess im happy about dat break up bah . it made me realise how slow ive been . how ive wasted my time on meaningless things . n well i seen thru enough of childish relationships . i just wanna concentrate in things i haven been doing . im on working it , so im continuing all de way now . so yup dats all for de memories part .

well had been really tired today , de day b4 , 12th aug i cleared work at isetan scotts . n ytd haben been resting well , went to meet jess derh marmiie in de morning n pass her punch card . den came back home , wan to slp , but sorta having insomia . den never mind went to watch anime . den go out with hao to find liing . liing put hair extention . rofl . took such a long time some more . den nbm b4 meet liing , hao peii me go meet my future lao ban niang . chatted with her for about an hour plus . den we went isetan scotts de basement 1 buy sushi n see liquor . den after dat walk to find liing at orchard plaza . on de way , we stop at isetan wisma . actually is my mistake . =.= cuz tot i wan to go taka find singlan . in de end . saw isetan , dno niahh go in walk one round . den realise is at taka not isetan . so very funneh we walk for nth . den nbm we continue our way to orchard plaza . den walao ! we nearly lost our way . cuz i usually shop niahh , dun remember building name . =.= den jiu nbm . met tio liing . wth she say she going to meet heng . rofl . so we stand outside ps , i smoke , liing eat sushi , hao do nth . den we go take mrt . in train play hao de psp =X walao i realise im naturally reaction slow de ren . play de stupid drum niahh . also can fail =.= hahaas . den talk to hao awhile n we do nth awhile , den i alight at yishun go find carol . reach dere , walk one whole big round around de foodcourt den find tio them . zzz . den nbm . sit down see them eat de indian rice . den mich says now is dunno summer or spring time . trend in orange lipstick . =.= actually is de stupid rice de colour stain tio mouth n teeth . =.= den they eat finish play psp . walao ehh . 7+ play till 8pm . win le lurhs . den we saw ho yy . actually say wan go off le . stand up niahh , den i tell carol ho yy is dere . den someone say duwan to talk to her . faster sit back continuing playing =.= . den i jitao bo wei gong (=_=''') . den jiu nbm do nth wait them , den about 8.10 we go buy thing n take bus . den i slack at carol house until 11+pm den reach home =.= rofl ~

den today more miserable den ytd . wake up niahh , watch vampire knight all de way until now den blog . =.= hao le , nidda shower again den go rest le . very slpy . =.=

signing off , rinx33 .