YFriday, December 5, 2008

sometimes i wonder is it humans out dere getting weird or just me ? i dun understand . is being moody gives a person right to tell others off ? is havin pms n moodswing gives a person right to condemn on others ? is unconfident a weakness dat changes human nature ? n is all people really dat gd as wad they appears ? idk , maybe is just de " difference " in thinking or rather de " difference " in background growing . if it has been easy between human communication , i think de world would have turn out better . if people hasn't been selfish , greedy , petty , unreasonable , i think in between human things will turn out much better . i think dats wad people says dat de outside world is harsh . cuz everyone shuldn't depend on someone else . its better for them to deserve themself . some people just take things for granted , n ive had enough of going thru all these . i think gd frene is someone who is able to reach out to u when u in need , not when they in need they reach out for u n forget everything about wad was being done to helped . n honestly , i just feel it sucks to be living in such world . human nature , truly is a harsh nature . well i guess dats y people says money is more trustable den frenes . i seems to know more about such world of fake nowadays .

i think im still perfectly fine , maybe dats de difference from de experiences we go thru . maybe dats y they say human nid to go thru certain stage to grow up . i think im on de stage of growing ahead of others . how true can a frene be ? time will tell u . cuz eventually untrue frenes will blow their cover EVENTUALLY . i guess being myself is de best after all . n i do belief my father's advice . cuz everytimes he commented on certain people . those points dat he mention , will eventually be seen . daddy is de best , best at spotting other ppl " cover " .

okays forget all about de ranting . im gonna congrats myself on being a mum , though its an embrassment to be pregnant before marry , but im happy with my life . at least ive gotten wad ive been searching for , n ive had found someone who is to me , wonderful . ive once been culture in buddist , for once i tot ive regret in my decision , but today , i came to clear mind , dat since its wad my believes in young age , ive decide to go full fledge vegetarian when i reaches age 21 . for time being , i'll try to adapt my changes to de food dat ive taken . n tq korr for going back into eating vegetarian n supporting me . from young till now , we've gone thru n seen alot tgt . u're de only first person dat i think i shuld trust . n 2nd will be my darling hubby . korr , without u , i would stand a low chance against standing firm in my decision . i know ive been unreasonable before , ive been proud before , ive been not very considerate before , but im gonna go for wads de best for me . just like wad kaze says before . human nids 2 side of their faces . GD n BAD . so as to swap around when facing different opponents . i'll go out fully to protect against my pride n i'll definitely go out fully to protect against my family . i guess i just nid him , dat'll be dere truly to stand against all storm with me . maybe is dats y i choose my other half over freneship . cuz like wads been written in history , husband is someone who is gonna be beside u all ur life , n frenes , are just bees who buzz in n outta life . i think if im left all alone with him today , i still can survive . cuz i belief , dat he'll be dere to give me dat 100% attention when i really nid it . finally i concluded myself , dat im living in happiness n blissful .

to someone who is once a frene , though dat stupid arguement is damn stupid , but well at least ive learn my lesson today . dat ive to truly be a capricon , n u made me realise i found my happiness . major decision maded . im gonna be strong like my in law . cuz she's someone i derserve to learn from .