YThursday, June 11, 2009

seriously felt funny . received this sms of SOMEONE asking me wad im busy with recently , y never contact him . HELLO ! of cuz im bz with Gwendolyn's stuff ! and why de hell shuld i contact u ? not like u're impt to me . u're just NOBODY ! WAHAHAHA !
okays dats kinda stupid . am feeling awfully dread . was so tired . i have to breastfeed her during de day . and even at times in de nite . WTH with de stupid weather also , was so freakingly bth . had to suffer the hotness , going thru days without fan . thankfully to hubby , at least i have air con during my slp . -.-'''
and had to eat those hotty stuff dat sweat me like #(P&%)(@#&%@( !!!!!!
okays i rant to many ppl complaining how awful it felt . worse part of worse ! i cant stand when i did not shower with COLD WATER N SHAMPOO ! how can i feel clean with showering hot water n worse of all not being able to wash hair ????????!!!!!!!! how i wish im staying alone now . =X so i can have a nice wonderful shower ! hahaas !!!!!!!! bth le bth le bth le ! all my complains !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -.-'''

okays now to me i will say the greatest happiness of de day , is not only slp , IS BEING ABLE TO SHOWER COLD WATER N SHAMPOO UR HAIR AS MANY TIMES AS U LIKE ! actually confinement is terrible for me . if u call me eat alot of bitter or weirdy stuff , am still able to tahan . but pls dun call me DUN SHOWER PROPERLY . ITS KILLING ME INSANELY !!! now i know y ppl have after preganancy depression . its really terrible dat it will make u feel so fuming n despo at times . i really had de signs of depression . I EMO , CUZ I DUN GET TO HAVE NICE SHOWER . AND IT HAS TO LAST UNTIL JULY 2ND ! OMFG #%)*@#%*$_*%$@_*%@#_*%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_____________________T

am seriouly UPSET OVER IT ! -.-'''

Gwendolyn is 9 days old , and still counting . x33 Daniel Tan AND Gwendolyn Tan .

YWednesday, June 10, 2009

Hi all once again . Finally remember my blogger pw . Anyway was being asked on alot of things . So i just blog here n let everyone who wants to ask about de birth process , get de chance to know .

On june 1st , Monday , i went back to my doc's clinic check up in de morning . Did the (CTG) scan ; [forget de full name of de scan ] . Doc say can still wait for baby to birth . So hubby says , " since past few days we waited for NTH , today we dun wait . We proceed on with wad we nid to do . IT WUN BE SO COINCIDENT THAT SHE WILL COME OUT TODAY WHEN WE PLANNED TO DO SMTH IMPT . " So well we planned my day trip as per normal . Even though it was a high time period . I planned with hubby to return to my house to check de address for Acer service centre , den we would go up n sent his lappy for repair . Then after which we will go shopping at town and then go home . But we drag the time . We drag n drag till evening , den changed plan . Plan B is stay at yishun overnight , and june 2nd , Tuesday , we would visit de service centre .
Funny thing . We packed all our stuff . All ready to leave home . Before i left , Mummy [ Daniel's Mum ] touched my tummy and says " BABY , BABY , FASTER COME OUT , AH MA WAN HUG HUG U . " Then suddenly , i felt something warm flowing out of my cervix . I tot it was my bladder over full , and de urine flow out . So i went to toilet . I wiped it away and clear my bladder , still thinking it was urine , i didn't give any second thought of wad it would be . After wipe , i took a new panty n pants , wanted to wear , and it flows again . This time i started suspecting something is wrong . I started thinking . I tot i just cleared my bladder ? So kinda panic . Well so coincident , hubby was at living room watching tv , was kinda panic in toilet . -.-'''
Well n as if hubby can hear my heart calling for him , he walked into room . I asked him is de water in de water bag warm ? He look at me , stunned n blurred . So i say i think my water bag burst . -.-''' then the first sentence he says after recovering himself , " call up ur clinic n ask wad happen ? " So there i go , called n ask the lady at the counter . She replied hang on that she would call me back in a min she nid to consult doctor . -.-''' next call i picked up , i received this reply . " Pls admit urself into the hospital , de nurse at de clinic will guide u when u are there . " Then my mother in law VERY PRO . At this point of time , she started cooking mushroom noodle . -.-''' Then she says , " nbm one , no need be so panic . baby wun come out so soon de . " so we happily eat our stupid noodle , den take cab to Eastshore hospital .
Upon reaching hospital , me n hubby was saying so coincident as in baby really did know how to choose time n all . -.-''' SO SO COINCIDENT ! i cant even belief it . Right after wad my mother in law said [ as above ] , water bag burst . -.-'''
So then the nurses gave me a clothes , wth , tied behind , n will see ur butt if de split open . Worse still , no undergarments or anything , just that piece of cloth . -.-''' den call me lie down in bed and wait for de cervix to open up to 10 cm . So there i go , lying in bed , chit chatting n laughing with hubby . When i admit in , my cervix is only 2cm wide . so i chat n joke n all , until around 2am , small visible feeling of contraction started . Nurses came in alot of time and ask whether i wan put epidural before de big pain comes , and i went on hard saying no . REASON BEING both my mum and my mother in law tell me try not to use it . So 2am i start complaining pain . [ though still bearable at that point of time . ] I tot my cervix will open up fast , but neither did i expect it to be so so slow . At June 2nd , Tuesday , around 6.30am , i cannot stand de pain n requested for epidural . -.-''' so in de end i still put , de previous suffering went to vain . I remember de pain was dat painful that i can't turn my body . So with de help of de nurses , i turned facing left , and de doc injected de epidural into my back . I can say it was a damn stupid experience . At first i was given a marsk that contain dunno wad air , the nurse say will help in de pain . i use , it help , making me giddy -.-''' . So i went for 2nd option , the injection on de leg , IT DIN WORK AT ALL ! -.-''' so i ended up with epidural . At the point of time i took epidural , i can't even pee on my own le . Cuz de pain was dat painful dat i cant even force myself to pee .
So 6.30am after injection , i fall into a short slp . feeling so worn out caused by the pain . At around 9.30 am , i woke up starting to pick up my sense of touch again , and de pain , slowly returning to me . At around dat time de doc came , but she say still nid sometime for my cervix to completely open , n for baby's head to be seen . So she went back to de clinic first .
I was thinking OMG wad if suddenly im ready to deliver ?
So she went off , n i still suffering de pain . Well around 10am de nurse checked n says im still not ready , and say if i wan can squeeze to let the baby come out early . So i TRIED SQUEEZING . At 10.30am , de nurse checked again . This time she says can see head le , use ur strength n push . So i went in pain trying n squeezing . After a few tries i cant manage to squeeze out . So nurse hurry n call doc . Doc reach in fast speed , n asked me to SQUEEZE with all my might . So i push n push , all de way this time , n baby is out .
Ppl asked how do u feel after baby is out , i tell u it felt as if for hundreds yrs never clear bowels , after come out , felt so light n empty , no longer dat painful , no longer feel urself . U will wan to KO after dat . Its a very tiring job ! But well i din ko , n i hugged baby so happily . First time , i feel so great , so touched . seeing her in my arms . u can ask her father how he felt . he smile n hug her so dearly . Praising me that im gd did a gd job . A day full of warm n touch . Tried breastfeeding her right after she born . but she refuses . So i had a lil time , i koed . next moment i woke up , they were ready to change me to my ward .
breastfed her in ward , and feel so wonderful dat day .

thats about de story of me giving birth to lil Gwendolyn Tan .
Today , she is 8days old le . =D
pics of her i cant upload as i couldn't find my hp wire -.-''' sry pals .

okays time for me to rest now . blog again soon . nitey all !
signing off , rinny .