YSaturday, October 4, 2008

just watched channel U de show , seeking de right one , they show Quan Yi Feng de surprise wedding , den i suddenly tot of future . was curious wad reallys holds on for me . well felt very touching when watch dat show . though i watched b4 le , repeat watching , still feeling it was sweet n touching . well not important . these few days hasn't been doing much . keep slacking n slacking T.T lazy me . how i wish to faster get a job n start working on for money . has been very broke . LOLS ! okays nth much to blog about today .

signing off , Rinx33 .

YWednesday, October 1, 2008

i guess having stress n cant relieve it , really is terrible ? have been having insomia . so vex about everything . it feels as though a mountain of rocks is on ur shoulder . how i wish to go somewhere quiet , without anyone to bother me . thinking back n thinking thru . alot have happen . n i realise ive been such a bitch from past to now . guess im not a welcoming soul after all .
ppl says frene walk in n out of life , i wondering y some " friends " walk in n out in n out .
am i really such a lousy frene ? sometimes i just wonder .
thing varies from time to time , does human characteristic applies to it too ?
im so fickle minded now . just wondering wad has to be n wads not to be ?
sometimes i really wonder wad did i really want .
have been trying to think thru wad i want , but it seems i cant find de proper answer .
discussed with carol about wad males care about , not bias to gals , but sometimes ,
its really hard for gals to guess wad guys wanted .
well on contary its hard for guys to understand gals too .
i dun understand y mother nature make us have such big difference .
mars n venus . a book i browse thru at bookstore .
its quite true in some of de paragragh though .
hmx if freneship is not working out between humans ,
how can we expect relationship to ?

then i thought of this to myself . how come i can feel im alive ? n de heartpain , de happy ?
den i pinched myself n ask , y is dere such thing as human in de first place ?
den i tot of alot of stupid question , y was i given a name ?
y everything was given a name ?
y a certain thing appear to be how it looks ?
y is dere scientist n invention ?
think till a point i tot maybe im just insane ?
den i tot y do we have different face when we're of same kind ?
y cant we be like de animals ? cow ? goat ? monkey ?
it surely is im losing my sanity i concluded .

then thinking thru , i realise , actually in years of life we actually can use the time to make alot of changes n improvement . its only whether we want or duwan . so i learnt not to complain . but to think , why thing are in such ways n not how i wanted it to be . and i learnt . dun ask wad others can do for u . ask urself , wad can u do for others instead . so i never nid to learn to complain about my giving n not having things to take back .

signing off , Rinx33

YTuesday, September 30, 2008

Been really in bad mood these few days . ever since last thurs . dun ask me why . i wun even bother to talk much details about it . looks like my acting skills been really increasing . how many would have ever know wad im thinking . freneship , relationship , kinship ? are there really LOVE ? as in are there really the perfects ? since nobody is perfect , den why de hell are we looking for perfects ?
ive been really thinking thru wad happen ever since i entered secondary . cant understand wad my heart n mind is really asking for . time to time , it just leave me in confusion making me feel so lost . guess its not about packing up feelings or being emos . its just about how much ive been able to understand myself ? nbm .

recently did quite a few things . like going to cinema with carol to watch mirror . was quite " scary " to me , since im not frequent to watching these type of shows . however its been trilling n funny with our reaction for some parts .
well went to jess house to watch 4bia too . was quite scary , de first part , second part quite disgusting , third one is really lame n funny . well i missed de forth , cuz lazy to watch on . well gonna get a gd time n catch it again . watched disater movie at de same day too . quite a confusing show . nbm . n carol n jess watch some show , forget its name , heard its funny , n im not watching , cuz i leave my concentration on my phone n tony's psp .

met up with daniel on fri n sat . did nth much , a sway day i guess . for my part of story is funny , for his part is piss i guess .
Friday , 26th sept 2008
i went swimming , n returning home , i tot wanna take clothes n went out slack until daniel book out , but i forget to take things after i first time lock de door , den nbm i ope le , took le , den WTF ! i left my key , cellphone n wallet inside de house . dats not de lame part , lamest was i went over to cuzzie house wanting to ask for key , den find for almost an hour n i couldn't find . den jiu nbm . i called n ask my dad whether he could come back n borrow me de key , den he says he was bz . coincidently , xiong looked behind de tv deco , n saw my key . wth ~ i was so freaking excited , n as i walk out his house door , calling to char bor waiting for me at my house door , i lost balance n fell down ( worst thing is im holding to door grill ! could not understand how in de world i canfall while im grabbing to de grill !! ) den i sprain my ankle minorly . den open le door , took out my things . feel so funny keep laughing at myself . den jiu nbm . den meet up daniel at 8+ , thinking peii him go home as he shower n unpack his duffle bag . but sway ~ he forgot his key . so dere it goes , 2nd time in a day im being locked out of de door . den peii him walk around n ask for his keys from ppl he know . in de end , 10pm everyone rush back n gave him keys . NTS ! wad an " eventful " day .

Saturday , 27th sept 2008
daniel have guard duty on sunday 28th , so he nid to book in early on sat nite . went ovr to his house n he packed his duffle bag once again to get rdy to go back camp at nite . he nid to do alot things today , like taking photo , getting some chips , getting some stationary n stuffs dat he's gonna nid in bunk . we left his house to come ovr to my house at 3+pm or 4pm ? i cant remember . den in which he left his bag at my house , n we went to chong pang n get his stuff . meet up min at ard 8+pm to get my spare phone back . ( my k660i has been in bad condition , since it keep tripping itself outta my hand time n time again , so i nidda get back my phone n get it to service bah . ) den hmx ate dinner b4 daniel went back to his camp .

well small lil things happen along in these few days , argument , fights n all . i really dno wtf is happening to me . maybe i nid a gd time out . especially my mum's been nagging like as though de monk chanting . if chanting , i think i still might be able to listen finish n get it inside my brain , but her chant . for god sake . got de urge to stuff food into her mouth n make her quite for one whole week ! really bth when she starts to open her mouth . it din do me any gd . it just add up to my stress n its really getting me tired out .

sunday 28th sept
was thinking of swimming , dated char bor , but she say pool alot ppl she ps duwan to go . omfg . so wad we did is stroll ard in popular in which i spent money on some stationary n books to prepare things or write things bah . ( ps , idk wad im trying to say here . contradicting my thinking n my words now ! )

monday 29thsept
been a really sad day today . morning went swimming with char bor . den went ovr to her house , n emo all de way till i reach home . guess idk wad im thinking after all . said things which hurt daniel i guess . idk . been crying for mostly today . nbm . its over . nth much to add on . just tot of saying a nice sryy to daniel . n trying to tell everyone , i really dun understand wad GUYS are thinking about . N WORSE STILL . I DUN EVEN UNDERSTAND WAD IM THINKING ! i seriously am confused ! ohh . was having alot of complaints n discussion with char bor today , myabe dats wad extra specials added to my emo lvl today . well end of stories i guess ?

sryy everyone about de emoing n lame stories .
signing off , Rinx33 .