after exploring n thinking thru , i decided to del my old blogger , as well as , use back my old blogskin . looking at de skin itself , it links me back to alot memories . but its not important anymore .
signing off , Confused Rin .
Reaching Out . Lead me out , dun leave me out .
3:51 PM
Thinking back to my last few years of life . i cant really seems to find de point in my life ?
everything seems so depressing somehow . though i learn to look on de bright side , but .
well things wasn't really working out as it seems . sometimes i ponder over things which din
actually happen or even exist . i guess dats wad they call emo n depression ? sometimes i do
feel i have split personality . i can be happy now , n upset in de next moment , without remembering wad happen b4 dat made me happy . guess ive been up to lame these few weeks .
been giving daniel alot of troubles n stuff . Wads with de fucking mind in me dat wanna make myself miserable ? sometimes i just wished . things have never happen in such ways dat idk whether they're right or wrong . thinking n thinking . i think i really nid a brainwash . BEEN HOOKED in psp these 2 days . dun think its really gd in such a way . so i just locked it up in cupboard n stop myself from getting addict to it , n transforming back to wad i was just months ago .
remembering going to clement's badae celebrationg at his uncle house . well i was really late . n i really pissed the guys off i guess ? well was saying i'll leave house at 3.30pm but eventually i slept n leave home at 4.30pm . randomly picked a present for clement , wasn't as gd as wad i wish it will be ? well maybe dats y i dun like buying present . den went to amk find hao , clement , mc , bryant n a few others who i dun really know or remember . but i remember i late until yz sian den he went home eventually . well was sryy . cuz i wasn't been feeling well all these while . as in im kinda caught u a lil in insomia . but its getting better these few days . went swimming last few days . kinda swim in rain . as in really swim . den been tiring myself out to make myself more into sleeping mode ? rofl . not been in de mood , n nth much for me to post up . so been skipping de idea of updating blog , read blogs n even check mails . today quite a lil in mood , so here i am craping up my days again .
been thinking about moving house n about my rs . well things maybe wasn't as happily ever after was wad was written in fairy tales . to me . maybe its just how plain im feeling . n not how gd ive been feeling bah . been keeping up my emotions to everyone . well hopefully one day i'll clear my mind n start feeling all better again .
* p.s. thx for everything . but im still thinking about wad ive been telling u dat was in my mind . it wouldn't be ez for me to forget n belief . idk its just matter of my feelings . i know im being selfish in such a way . pardon me . maybe . like wad i said b4 . im not as ready as i thought . maybe its myself dat i cant get over with . alot of things , i still mind . i still care . WAD DE FUCK SHULD I DO ? I REALLY DONT KNOW ! *
signing off . Confused Rin.
Reaching Out . Lead me out , dun leave me out .
3:14 PM