i guess having stress n cant relieve it , really is terrible ? have been having insomia . so vex about everything . it feels as though a mountain of rocks is on ur shoulder . how i wish to go somewhere quiet , without anyone to bother me . thinking back n thinking thru . alot have happen . n i realise ive been such a bitch from past to now . guess im not a welcoming soul after all .
ppl says frene walk in n out of life , i wondering y some " friends " walk in n out in n out .
am i really such a lousy frene ? sometimes i just wonder .
thing varies from time to time , does human characteristic applies to it too ?
im so fickle minded now . just wondering wad has to be n wads not to be ?
sometimes i really wonder wad did i really want .
have been trying to think thru wad i want , but it seems i cant find de proper answer .
discussed with carol about wad males care about , not bias to gals , but sometimes ,
its really hard for gals to guess wad guys wanted .
well on contary its hard for guys to understand gals too .
i dun understand y mother nature make us have such big difference .
mars n venus . a book i browse thru at bookstore .
its quite true in some of de paragragh though .
hmx if freneship is not working out between humans ,
how can we expect relationship to ?
then i thought of this to myself . how come i can feel im alive ? n de heartpain , de happy ?
den i pinched myself n ask , y is dere such thing as human in de first place ?
den i tot of alot of stupid question , y was i given a name ?
y everything was given a name ?
y a certain thing appear to be how it looks ?
y is dere scientist n invention ?
think till a point i tot maybe im just insane ?
den i tot y do we have different face when we're of same kind ?
y cant we be like de animals ? cow ? goat ? monkey ?
it surely is im losing my sanity i concluded .
then thinking thru , i realise , actually in years of life we actually can use the time to make alot of changes n improvement . its only whether we want or duwan . so i learnt not to complain . but to think , why thing are in such ways n not how i wanted it to be . and i learnt . dun ask wad others can do for u . ask urself , wad can u do for others instead . so i never nid to learn to complain about my giving n not having things to take back .
signing off , Rinx33
Reaching Out . Lead me out , dun leave me out .
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