time travel so fast . incredibly , my sad memories was over for more den 2 mths le . guess i still haben really let go bah . keep thinking back . dunno for wad also . but well nth i can do le bah . =( ohh . ytd had a terrible nightmare , n i cried in my dream . i dreamt one of my close brother had an accident . i cried until i wake up . i hope dat dream wun come true bah . i love my brothers n sisters , so i hope nth would happen to them bah . den i had a 2nd dream . i dreamt dat i went for tattooing n de shop is just at my void deck . such a stupid dream . but well i wanna go for a tattoo soon bah . ohh . anyway , today is de last 3rd day at scotts le . time really flies bah . now my heart feeling so messy . well i was thinking . am i right in de first place ? i kinda dun understand de reasons n meaning of wad im doing now . y am i afraid suddenly ? im really feeling mess up . how i wish to have dat shoulder dere for me to cry . i miss him . really , i do . i really wish things wouldn't have turn out this way bah . =( anyway . these 2 days alot happen ard me . im kinda falling soon . with no supporting shoulder , n no one to turn to . im kinda lost now . feeling very very upset . hais ~ guess its gd time to give myself a break after de work at scotts bah . wanna have sometime to myself bah . really miss him . simple euu special love . is it really dat way ? i dun think so bah . my happy days are over i guess .
signing off , rinx33 .
* hiding in my blanket crying all alone . where are u when i nided u most ? *
Reaching Out . Lead me out , dun leave me out .
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